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anything to push off studying for a little while longer.
i seriously seriously have no mood to study at all. which is weird. because in desperate situations (for example, the week before FINALS) normally all i want to do is cram, until my brain cant take anymore.
but now im just.. tired.
god knows why.
bleh.

I WISH JOHN QUEK GAVE TUITION FOR SAM!

~vid~

p.s. jea mie.. ur exams finish edi, rite? start posting. ish. XD

It Hurts Too Much To Say Goodbye

It's raining outside. Drizzling actually. And i can hear the *drip* *drip* clearly because i'm too comfortably cross-legged in my chair to get up and shut the window.
And also because I've got this bowl of ice-cream which I'm very intent on finishing.
Ice-cream and rain.
Perfect scene for me to be emotional about the last day of college.

And I know that this post is two days overdue, but here I go :

I never thought that I would miss anything the way i missed Subang Utama.
Five years worth of memories; all the pain, the laughter, the craziness, the smiles, the friends.
I grew up in SU. Started out as this innocent kid who was just plain nerdy, but then I went through a lot. Did alot of downright stupid things. Went through life with a lot of regrets. But those five years saw me grow up into the person I am today.
I never thought I'd survive in a new place, with new people. I never thought I'd be able to be myself around people who didn't grow up with me, who hadn't been through everything that I had.
I don't think I've ever been proved so wrong.

I didn't think 10 months would be enough to create memories that are so strong, and so wonderful, it would take a lifetime to forget them.
To find other best friends to add to the ones I already have.
To find people who would accept me the way I am, flaws and all.
To love 22 other people so so so much that it hurts to even think of goodbye.

Maybe it was the fact that we had only 10 months that made this all possible.
Maybe if we had more time, if we had done a less stressful course, if our class had more students, if our class hadn't been OUR CLASS, then we wouldn't miss each other the way we do.

Maybe it was the fact that most of us didn't know anyone else in class.

Maybe it was all the class lunches in the beginning of the year. And all the times we decided to all wear the same colour to college. And all the birthday parties for each and every person in class.

Maybe it was losing some people along the way. Mani, Nithyaa, Sing Ping, Huey Chieng, Jun Beng, Natasha.. Maybe it was losing them that brought us all closer to each other.

Maybe it was all the stress. Of exams, and assignments, and deadlines. Or of Charity Night, which ended up as more of a G4 project than a Student Council project.
Remember surviving through all the things that went so horribly wrong?

Maybe it was just fate, that brought us all together.


And all the memories that I have. Random thoughts woven into thread.
All the stupid things I did this year, the nonsense, the craziness, the ever-present laughter, the reasons to smile, the regrets, the heartaches (anyone remember dhiraj? :p), the times when I felt like just giving it all up, the embarassments..
And yet, I would give up anything to live it all again.
Every second of it.
Even if it's just for once more.
Because every memory has G4 stamped all over it.

The last day just didn't seem like the last day. I guess that was because we were just camwhoring the whole day.
And charades at the end was pure genius (although we were losing shamelessly).
I hated to have to leave early.
And it only sank in when I was hugging everyone goodbye.
(I hate being short. It's awfully akward to hug tall people when you're short)
It was just too abrupt. Because one minute I was laughing, and the next it was farewell.
But I guess that's the way I would have wanted it to be. I would have wanted to leave G4 smiling, because that's the one impression that will stay with me forever.
That we were such happy happy people.
I wanted so badly to cry in the car, but my parents wouldn't have understood why. And i couldn't go through explanations. And I'm glad I didn't cry.
Because I love you people so much, that you don't deserve my tears. You deserve my smiles, and my happiness, and all the love I have in me to give.

This year has been one hell of a roller coaster ride, and i don't want it to come to an end. :(

Love you lots

~vid~

Can't Think of a Title. So Name It What You Will.

life's wonderful when ur 17 and in love.
life's not so wonderful when ur 17, in love, and have exams in one week.

hehe. ignore that. jz felt like saying it. btw, i deleted the weird, purple, title-less post, cos it wasn't sposed to be published. i wasn't done with it yet. it was sposed to be saved as a draft.
ish.

theres so many things i wanna say all at the same time!!
i esp want to emo about G4 again. hehe.
but i shall unload everything else on this post first, then write another emo G4 post. XD

yeah, so..
(edited)

Saturday (27th October)

has anyone ever gotten injections in their FOOT before??
cos i did yesterday. about TEN in each foot.
OWWWWWWW!!
so bloody freaking painful!!
i had to go to kluang to get it done, cos apparently it's some hormone deficiency thing that made the skin on my sole really dry, so the doc decided to inject the freaking hormone into my foot.
ow. ow. ow. ow. ow.
bleh. i already walk in a terribly unladylike manner (acc to my mum), and now i walk like a total drunkard. yay me.

and my mother is an absolute angel.
cos i was sposed to pack to go jb yest, rite? so i packed on thurs night, and of course, i didn't put pinkie in. and in the morning, i woke up late (as usual), so i rushed, and forgot.
and then when we reached my cusin's house i was like OMFG I FORGOT PINKIE.
and then i opened my bag, and guess what?? i saw pinkie!
cos apparently my mum had checked to make sure i put pinkie in, and when she saw i didn't, she put pinkie in for me!!! yay!

AND its suh ming's birthday!!!! :)

oh, and check this out :
(i have no idea what u call it though)

its kinda blur, cos my phone camera doesn't have the greatest resolution in the world.
me and my cusins were just practicing, though, cos we have to do this in december, for my cusin's wedding. and it isn't finished, cos we ran out of rice. hehe.
but isn't it pretty?
i love being indian. :)


Sunday (28th October)

i finally watched a football match last night. after soooooo long.
bleh. MU-Middlesborough.
omg, i am seriously so disappointed with the way MU played!!
yeah, so they won. 4-1 and all, but the way they played!! so messy!
i mean, passing to Middlesborough players, losing possession so easily, kicking straight to the goalkeeper (u'd think they'd never practice scoring), and worst of all, letting the Middlesborough players run right through defence. wth??!! i mean, there are soooo many opportunities to tackle, and these people let them run!! grrrrrr..
saja give people stress. ish.
i think i was cursing every 20 seconds.
but we don't have alot of our players right now. i mean,
Scholes - Injured.
Silvestre - Injured.
Neville - Injured.
Saha - Injured. (what else is new? -.-)
talk about rotten luck.
i have to admit, Nani and Anderson are really good. but Fletcher has to be the most useless specimen i have ever seen, honestly. why bring him on??!!
i could murder Ferguson, seriously.
and i'm still terribly annoyed with him for selling Alan Smith. grr.

and omg, i hope liverpool win today. i really really really want them to.
eventhough i can't stand them.
oh, and can some kind soul who has been following EPL this season (the way i haven't been allowed to), please tell me why Arsenal and some of the other teams are one game behind everyone else?
i don't get it.
and how the hell did chelsea trash MC SIX-nil yest??!!

yeah, so this post is way too long, so i shut up now, and then i shall go emo about G4 on another post. hehe. XD

bloody hell. eng mock tomoro. im so laaaaaazy to go!! grr.

~vid~

More Videos.

Lol.
More videos. XD
First up,
One of my favourite childhood songs :
The Lion Sleeps Tonight.


Next, A parody of You're Beautiful, which was originally sang by James Blunt.
It's called "She was Beautiful - I swear"


Followed by a song titled If I Were Gay by Stephen Lynch featuring Harry Potter and Ron Weasley. :)


And last but not least, an Indian thriller with a direct English interpretation of the song verses. Hilarious. XD


Enjoy.

--- JM ---

Ruy's Umbrella Dance

(title verbatim from wye luun)

meet my classmate ruy mun (again):
in.. RUY"S UMBRELLA DANCE

this is stuff you don't see anywhere else. :p

and i do believe this is one of the funniest pictures i have ever been in. XD
i start laughing everytime i look at it.
(i swear, its IMPOSSIBLE to get freddy to keep still long enough to take a picture!!)




it WAS sunshiny today morning. i hate murphy and his stupid law. bleh.

i do believe i only win bets when wearing pyjamas is involved. i currently owe adrian wong lunch (not technically a bet, but still.. lunch!), and ruy mun teh-*something* ais. ish.

~vid~

p.s. ONE more day. i don't even have enough hyperness to say "noooooo". sigh.

Gloomy - weather, mood, everything.

yea yea, so much for not coming online and refusing to get distracted, lol.
did i mention that i have zero discipline??
the only times i ever stick to resolutions i make, are when i'm doing it out of sheer stubbornness, not willpower. sigh.
i give up on myself.
is there anyone out there who would be kind enough to provoke me into proving that i can stay offline for the next two weeks? pwease? ><

bleh. k, so first things first.
i want to apologize, for the whole idiot post, and the prev post.. the one about ranting.
i dunno why i wrote it out here, guess it was jz to let certain people know that they annoy me, and make them terasa a bit.
but then i realised that it makes me sound terribly whiny and grumpified. esp since its two posts almost in succession.
esp since i was swearing alot on the ranting post. i wrote it out completely first, then i decided to be nice and.. (asterisk? how to spell??) ..erm, 'put all the stars in' all the bad words. hehe.
yea, so bottom line is i'm sorry. and if i do it again, anyone who reads my blog has full permission to kick my butt.
ONLY if i do it again on the BLOG.
if i whine in school, then shut up and listen. hehe. :)

kind of weird how things got so out of hand, though. i mean, some guy writes something on his blog (i won't call him idiot anymore. i don't know him, so it's pretty idiotic of ME to call him names), and a whole lot of people who have nothing to do with it what-so-ever (that includes me, btw. ish.), get all upset, and then the retorts, and replies, and lashing out span across a few blogs, and people start losing friends.
wth.
it's a sad, screwed up world we live in.
p.s. so yeah, erm, person, i'm sorry i ranted about you on my blog. was jz annoyed tat i couldn't leave comments on yours. and it was pretty dumb. still don't agree one bit with what you did though. and i still think you're awful.

*omg! we have only TWO days left of college!!!! bloody hell!!*
and it doesn't help that the weather this week is super gloomy. i want my last week to be sunny, and bright and happified!
not gloomy, and rainy, and mosquito-bite-y, and stressful, and depressifying.
(can i not sit for finals? can someone sit it for me instead?)
and yeah, since its been raining every single morning this week, i can't congregate with my friends around the benches under the tree in the mornings anymore. :(
and it's our LAST week. how bloody unfair.
and tomorrow i'm having MUET speaking test. which means i have to be in school earlier than usual, before everyone else arrives. which means i can't meet everybody anyway even if the weather tomorrow is good.
and thanks to Murphy's Law, i'm pretty sure tomorrow will be such a bright, nice, sunshiny morning. anyone wanna place bets?
(p.s. i don't gamble money. anyone interested in wearing pyjamas on the last day? XD)
haha. k, that was lame. eek. sorry.
btw, michelle, you look good in pyjamas. :p

yeah, so this post was just to say sorry for stuff.
heh.

~vid~

Irritation. (long overdue)

I need to rant again.
i have just realised that this planet is over-infested with idiots.
and i'm getting really sick of them.
contrary to popular belief, i happen to have a very short temper. and when i do get pissed off, trust me, it isn't pretty.
and i am really pissed off right now. but i'm not really in the mood to spoil my day further by picking fights with people.
but i need to rant. before i get so off-mood that i cannot study.

oh, and by the way, this post isn't just for one person, it's for a few people.

i really really cannot stand people who judge me before they know me.
i mean, you want to judge me and keep it to yourself, fine. go ahead.
don't judge me and start describing me to others, as someone whom you THINK i am.
because i'm not your standard psychology-101-textbook nerd.
get to know me for who i am before you judge me, or f**k off.

and i cannot stand being stared at.
and when i say staring, i mean when you look at me without looking away for more than 2 minutes. that's staring. and that's also terribly irritating.
there are some people in this world who are so freaking perasan it's amazing they can still walk on the ground. get a life la, seriously. if i DID like you, i should be the one staring at you, not the other way around.
but then i don't stare at people, cos then i would irritate myself. so go dream on lah.
and just cos ur f**king indian and i happened to look in your direction ONCE doesn't mean i have to be head over heels for you.
but okay lah, you want to stare also, do it in a way that's LESS OBVIOUS for god's sake!

and i cannot stand people who are so freaking nice to me and yet bitch about me behind my back.
you wanna say something about me, have the guts to say it to my face.
if there's something about my personality you don't like, then tell me. if there's something i did wrong, then i'd own up to it. i think everyone who knows me knows that i don't have a problem saying sorry when i'm really in the wrong.
but if you come and complain without basis, then you're being stupid lah. cos you know you'll kena from me.
and for all those idiots who have a problem with the way i dress or the way i look or with me in general, then what the f**k are you still doing around me??!
i would strongly suggest staying away from me, preferably, keep a ten-mile radius.
and no, i don't have a problem with losing friends, if you're only going to be a 'friend' at face value.

and i do not enjoy being the scapegoat for everything. just because i'm nice to people in general, doesn't mean you can take advantage of that.
just because you think i'm too nice to lose my temper, doesn't mean you can blame me for something that isn't my fault.
especially if it's something that i had absolutely nothing to do with.


and theres also another thing i learnt this week. something i have come across over and over, but this time it really hit me in the face.
it's really scary to give someone advice. especially if it backfires, cos then you'll feel downright guilty. and there are some things that cannot be fixed on the spot.
and i am never never NEVER giving anyone advice again unless its about something im 110% sure of.

damn, after today, i really should not come online anymore. it's too distracting.
and i shall not be distracted.

~vid~

p.s. to jea mie and fiona : eh, tell me when u people finish exams/start holidays, k? :P

Just For Fun

haha. i can't believe i wrote an entire post on idiot. nice.
i have more idiots to complain about. although these idiots aren't as idiotic as the idiot.
(idiot is such a nice word to pronounce, isn't it? idiot. lol. XD)

my list of idiots (actually, there's only one, so it should be idiot, but.. heh.) :
1. NBC
NBC complained about some copyright infringement thing, and hence, season 4 of The Office was taken off youtube!!
yerr!!!
their grandfather's backside lah, copyright infringement. they think only about themselves!! how selfish. what about me???!
how can they even consider depriving me of The Office?? have they absolutely no consideration for my feelings?? what if i die of boredom, because i don't have The Office as salvation?? what if i run out of inspiration to be funny??
what if i miss michael scott so much i pine away and become senile??!
NOOOOOO...
idiots.

haha. okay lah, copyright infringement lah. ish. lol.
i love The Office!! (kinda obvious, rite? :p)
i seriously, seriously do not understand how people don't find the show funny.
it's soooooo good!! esp michael scott, the boss. damn, the guy's classic.
(to quote wesley *(he told me this on msn day b4 yest, cos he managed to watch the 1st ep b4 NBC got all high n mighty about copyrights)*) :
"who else couldve said it but michael scott :
i'm not superstitious.. but i'm a.. little.. stitious.."
rotfl.
if you don't get the joke, then i duno wat to say la, lol.

oh, and i've got a new song that i like!
mamma mia, by ABBA. kinda old lah, but i heard it on the radio yest, and it just clicked. i mean, i figured that this was the song that could best illustrate my very very complicated *ahem* love life :

and the lyrics :
Ive been cheated by you since I dont know when
So I made up my mind, it must come to an end
Look at me now, will I ever learn?
I dont know how but I suddenly lose control
Theres a fire within my soul
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Chorus :
Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much Ive missed you
Yes, Ive been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go.

Ive been angry and sad about the things that you do
I cant count all the times that Ive told you were through
And when you go, when you slam the door
I think you know that you wont be away too long
You know that Im not that strong.
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

(chorus)

Mamma mia, even if I say
Bye bye, leave me now or never
Mamma mia, its a game we play
Bye bye doesnt mean forever

(Chorus)

michelle finds it amusing that i chose this song. rite. anyway, not all the lyrics apply, but most of it does. and not just the chorus. XD

anyway, i think ths post is already kinda long. and i don't have anything much important left to say.

~vid~

p.s. FOUR DAYS LEFT OF COLLEGE!! NOOOOOO!!

Dissatisfactions. (or Idiot.)

i don't get people who just write about random people on their blogs. i mean, if you're writing about some famous person, or even about your friends, then thats a whole different story.
can you imagine, if you stumbled upon a total stranger's blog, and there was this entire post dedicated to you?? and tak cukup this person writes about you, this person adds links to YOUR blog. blardie.
AND PUTS PICTURES. WTF.
i know it's a bit mean of me to condemn the fellow here la, considering the post was about my friend and not me, and im just menyibuking. but if the fella had a tagbox or comment section, rite.. sure kena nicely by now.
idiot went and disabled his comments thingy, and didn't put tagbox. grrrr.
like, eh, we don't need idiots like you to advertise for us lah. we're quite capable of doing it ourselves if we want to.
we can sue for stuff like this, can't we?
infringement of human rights. gah.

yea, so this post wasn't actually sposed to be for condemning people, but i really couldn't tahan.
eh, wait, i found a way to leave comments.
*****
ah, f**k. he did disable it.
IDIOT.
yerrr. and i very badly wanted to leave a comment too.
bleh.

omg, look at the state of my english. i've been reduced to 'gah' and 'bleh'. wth.

anyway, i AM an advocate of freedom of expression, but i do believe it has LIMITS.
for idiots like idiot, who don't know what that means, there's thing called the dictionary. go look it up in there.

and to people reading this, NO, i'm not going to tell you who idiot is. so don't bother asking. or i will yell at you. i'm in the mood to yell, so don't push it.

this post was sposed to be for smthng else.
but idiot spoilt my mood.
idiot.

~vid~

Thursday - 18th October

(i did get the date right, didn't i?)
i have to post these videos up here.

this is what happened last thursday after ruy mun gave up on re-stealing sze's car, and went all the way to 7 Eleven.
this video isn't all that funny, though, cos wye luun didn't switch on the cam in time.



but THIS video is! remember how we were all wondering why on earth ruy mun went in a completely wrong direction?
haha.. this is why :

rotfl. this is classic.
wouldve been better if my camera hadn't run out of memory at the end. :(


p.s. to those of you who don't know wats going on, here's the story :

ruy mun steals sze's volkswagen on wednesday, and parks it somewhere else. and sze really thought his car was stolen, and nearly made a police report, but found his car before that.
so on thursday, sze, wes n prag skip english, pretending that they were looking for sze's 'lost' phone (which he DIDNT lose), so that they could steal ruy mun's car this time and plant clues all over so that he'd have to go on a treasure-hunt-like-thing to find his car.
so wye luun followed mun around to record his reactions using my camera. XD
i'm very lazy to elaborate further, so if you still don't get it.. sorry lah. :)

~vid~

:)

Heh.
Cute.

--- JM ---

For All That I Will Miss

for some stupid reason, meebo is acting up. i can't log in to msn at all. aih.
no matter how many times i disconnect n reconnect the modem. which is f-ing retarded.
esp since today is my unload-to-jun-beng day.
bleh.


im emo-ing again. but this time, for a completely different reason.
it just hit me today that there are just FIVE days left of college.
and it sucks to think that after the 21st of Nov, i'm not going to be a taylorian anymore. :(
there is just so much that i'm going to miss!!


-i'll miss taylor's. eventhough i've only been here for 10+ months, it's grown on me.
-i miss playing pool! eventhough it's already been months since i last played. and i'll never forget the time we almost spent 15 bux each on pool, cos we played for 2 hours!
-i'll miss ms shirley. and the old ECA office. i already do. i miss the way the sofas were so cramped together that there was one spot where you had to sit sideways, and put your feet up. which was also the most comfortable position ever. and i'll miss ms shirley's red teddy bear.
-i'll miss the chem lab and the bio lab and the physics lab. and doing experiments together. even if i still have no idea how to use a bunsen burner. thank god for lab partners. :)
-i'll miss my lab coat! wearing it, i mean.
-i'll miss my LOCKER. most of all. although i hardly ever used it this semester. i'll miss seeing the very first timetable we had still stuck on the door. and my 'drawer'. and all my junk. and mess. and my super small padlock. sigh. i'll definitely miss A107.
-i'll miss the library. i hung out alot there in the first semester. i'll miss hunting for an empty locker, and then giving up and dumping my stuff on the floor near the turnstiles where all the other bags are. and how i'd walk up to the turnstile, then realise i didn't have my student ID.
-i'll miss standing outside class and leaning against the railing and staring at people.
-i'll miss the nice cushiony chairs in the cafeteria. i'll miss trying to study in the cafeteria every wednesday morning, and usually failing miserably.
-i'll miss the way people in taylors always, always walk into you, eventhough theres ten miles of space beside you that they can walk through.
-i'll miss being stared at by the moonstaring girl and co.
-i'll miss all those people whom i say hi to really often in college, and whom i talk to, but yet, whose phone numbers or msn adds i have never bothered asking for.
-i'll miss the SU gang that gathers under the tree every morning.
-i'll miss all those SU people whom i never had to say goodbye to last year, cos i knew i'd be seeing them again this year.
-i'll miss having lunch with "old high skul frenz".
-i'll miss my ALevels frenz.
god, i'll miss alot of things about taylors.

but most of all (even more than i'll miss my locker), i'll miss my classmates!!
i can't believe we have just five miserable days before we say goodbye, since the retarded registration number system won't let us sit the finals as a class.
grrr.
-i'll miss camwhoring with all you girls!! :) and all the poses you come up with.
-i'll miss being lame and hyper and retarded and random and.. err, i'll just miss being myself around you people. :(
-i'll miss going to the washroom with michelle n lesley, and hearing you people complain about how long i take in the washroom, and sitting with you people in class, and gossiping and going for lunch, and checking out guys, and laughing at the way michelle laughs, and writing messages to each other during class and not paying attention in bio.. and everything else that we ever did. i'll miss you two the most. :(
-i'll miss lunch with hui ruan and michelle leong. and how michelle always tries to get out of it, cos shes scared we'll make her eat. and i'll miss michelle's sarcasm which always surfaces when she's around me. i bring out the best in people. hehe. :)
-i'll miss freddy. my fellow online-crapper aka thumb's master. lol.
-i'll miss being lame with suh ming and teasing her about how red she turns and how she laughs at everything i say. and i'll miss being random with yen ming. and i'll miss how steph somehow remains calmly unaffected by it all.
-i'll miss wei june breaking into song during class at random, even during chem.
-i'll miss sam, and the way she always layans me, even when im being 100% lame. :)
-i'll actually miss being poked by ivan. and boon hong. and how boon hong always tries to steal my hair clip. and i'll miss wye luun being mean to me.
-i'll miss the whole gang of guys. and the nonsense they come up with. sze, pragash, wes, mun.. and the birthday bash and the car-stealing (i don't think it's ever going to stop now), and how the rest of us always end up in sze's house to watch the fun.
-i'll miss david the sweetheart. lol.
-and gg, sui ching, ee ann and ee wei. the four constants in the class whom i don't really know that well. but G4 wouldn't be G4 without them.
(i don't think i left anyone out. i counted and counted, and came up with only 22, and then realised i hadn't accounted for myself. -.-")

and our lecturers.
-i'll miss pn mahani. and her energy. and how she tells me i walk too slow. lol. and how she used to call me to answer questions, because she knew my chem sucked.
-and mr ng. who is always so nice and so lenient, that i feel bad not paying attention in his class (but then i do it anyway). and how he asks me to answer questions when he catches me stoning.
-and i'll miss how draggy and gossipy and long-winded ms angelene is. and how she always asks us if we understand stuff (as though we're kindergarten-ers), and always lets us out late when she says she'll let us out early.
-and i'll miss how ms christine always passes comments about my punctuality. i really can't help it if my need to pee/get-smthng-to-eat/walk-about-before-i-fall-asleep coincides with her maths lesson. but i think it was nice of her to let us play mafia in class tat day.
-and ms loke. god, i'll miss those eyebrows. XD 'nuff said.

theres a whole lot thats happened in this one year. and i'm really glad i ended up in G4. i don't think i'd have had as much fun in any other class, no matter how cool/fun/wonderful they claim to be. XD
(p.s. if anyone wants to take this personally, and merajuk, and go call me names on their blog.. by all means, go ahead. you can go fly a kite while you're at it, too.)

this is G4:
(EDITED:)


(i added more pics, cos sam said ruy mun was blocking her in the first pic. and i think there might be other people missing in the other pics we have, so to be on the safe side, put more pics lah. :P)
it's sad to think that not all of us are going to keep in touch with each other after this. (we should have an alumni or smthng, so we can have reunions. :) heh).
but no matter what, i'll always be a G4-ian, the way i still am and will always be a 5-omega-ian.
(cheh wah, so dramatic. lol~! swt. this was sposed to be an emo post. *chides self*).

p.s. bay, stop complaining about my posts! ur posts are essay-ish-ER than mine. and way longer. ISH. hehe. and i'm helping you larrr. sabar a bit can anot? -.-"

~vid~

Changed My Mind

everything will be okay in the end.
if its not okay,
its not the end.
-Anon-
(p.s. for future reference, Anon generally means Anonymous. so stop asking me who anon is!! XD)

okay, erm, so i deleted the LettersPart II post -. it was too..
emo
OBVIOUS
desperate
and none of those things actually describe me. i think i was channelling some alternate personality when i wrote that. hehe.
(*not like kena rasuk hantu la. more like split personality. but im certified insane, so its fine. :)*)

and i don't like being emo.
eh, wait. i do. sometimes. but not over things like this. :)
wasting energy lah, be emo over guys.
and i realised i don't need closure after all.
cos i was like "wat the heck, 7 days left, maybe i should jz let him know", rite?
but now i'm "wat the heck, 7 days left, why go embarass myself and make my last few days unfun??"
(p.s. thanx michelle and suh ming, for knocking sense into me)
oh, but wait. michelle says that i didn't make this part big enough on the earlier post.
so i shall copy paste this : LETTER 1 WAS NOT MEANT FOR BABY CYCLOPS.
should be big enough la, rite?
XD

anyway, i think its kinda obvious that im hyper.
thank goodness.
duno why i was so depressed in school today. heh.
sowwie. :(
and i'm surprised that people actually noticed. i didn't realise i was naturally hyper to the extent that people are concerned when i'm quiet.
i think i got about 30 "are you okay?"s today. swt. haha.
i feel loved.
and i would like to thank kington for being the first person who made me smile.
although he did it unintentionally. :P

*why am i using so many smileys? so retarded. ish.*

oh, and i refuse to talk about IF again. cos its boring. i mean, yea la, he makes me happy, blah blah, BUT i shall jz keep it to myself from now on.
more fun. heh.
(IF is the guy i like, la, k)
for those of you who know who he is, shh.
for those of you who don't, well, there's a reason you don't. hehe.
also, i've been talking too much about him anyway. nanti i get accused of gossiping.
bluekk.. ><
(smiley again. wth. i give up. bear with my smileys, k?)
p.s. michelle (again) if i DO talk about him, jz slap me. tq.

okay, so bottom line is, today's post was just to apologise for being such a depressed/emofied/unhyper/unfun/quiet/unsmiley person in class today.

p.s. jea mie, i LOVE this version of the song. :) thank you!!

p.s.2. jea mie, my MUET next wed!! speaking test!! can u go thru the whole thing with me again? i come ur house, k? and no, ur not allowed to say no. please and thank you. ^^

p.s.3 i love pooh bear. alot alot alot. but not more than pinkie la, hehe.

i have found myself again. hopefully, for good, this time. yay! :)
err. i like this picture. it has nothing to do with the finding myself thing. XD

~vid~

I Won't Say I'm In Love

One of my favourite songs.

Though not from my favourite disney movie.

I Won't Say I'm In Love by The Cheetah Girls.

From the Disney movie Hercules.

Originally sang by Meg in the cartoon.

Don't know the voice behind the character though.

But she's also the voice for Belle in Beauty and the Beast.

A tribute to our lovesick and emo Vidya. :)

--- JM ---

Grade change form # 2

Date:

Dear Professor,

My grade in ____ should be raised from _____ to ____ because:

1. There must be a mistake somewhere.

2. I was not well at the time of the examination.

3. My mind always goes blank during an examination.

4. This mark ruined my prospect of getting a scholarship.

5. This is the only course in which I received a poor grade

6. This mark grieved my mother (or Father). whose pride I am.

7. Conditions in the room were not conductive to concentration.

8. The examination was unfair and unfairly distributed over the subject

9. I have to work after school and nights; therefore I should be given a break.

10. I am married; therefore, I should be given a break.

11. I would have done much better if I had taken the examination give to one of the other sections.

12. Several people around me copied from my paper during the examination yet they received higher marks than I did. Surely this is not fair.

13. The reason I did not do better is because I am very honest. I do no wish to say anything against any other members of the class.

14. I know many of the class members who do not work as hard as I do an who got a better grade. I am recognized among my classmates as a good student - you just ask any one of them.

15. The question were ambiguous, and therefore, my answers should be graded according to the reasonable interpretations that I made of your questions.

16. Many of the questions could not be answered with straight facts; they were matters of opinion. I do not believe I should be penalize just because my opinions differ from those of the instructor.

17. I have studied this subject from the broad philosophical viewpoint and therefore, I was unable to answer your technical-based question

18. I am philosophically oriented to the realm of ideas; I respond to the sweep and scope of great intellects. My work is beyond the interest in petty details and parrot-like memorizing of those who are merely students

19. At the time of the exam, I was suffering from a severe case of cognitive dissonance and was incapable of coping with the stress of the hour.

20. It is not a higher mark I seek; I care nothing about marks; I think marks are wicked and I disapprove of them. However, this pernicious system of which I am a victim requires marks for achieving success and therefore, I seek a higher mark.

Thank you, Name.

--- JM ---

The universal grade change form

Found this at www.ahajokes.com. Theu universal grade change form. You are welcome to take it for your own use. XD

Tick where appropriate.

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To: Professor _______________

From: ____________________

I think my grade in your course, ___, should be changed from ___ to ___ for the following reasons:

__1. The persons who copied my paper made a higher grade than I did.

__2. The person whose paper I copied made a higher grade than I did.

__3. This course will lower my Grade Point Average and I won't get into:

__Medical School

__Graduate School

__Dental School

__Fraternity/Sorority

__The Mickey Mouse Club

__Tri County Tech

__4. I have to get an A in this course to balance the F in ______.

__5. I'll lose my scholarship.

__6. I'm on a varsity sports team, and my tutor couldn't find a copy of your exam for me.

__7. I didn't come to class and the person whose notes I used did not cover the material asked for on the exam.

__8. I studied the basic principles and the exam wanted every little fact.

__9. I learned all the facts and definitions but your exams asked about general principles.

__10. You are prejudiced against:

__ Males

__ Blacks

__ Females

__ Jews

__ Catholics

__ Whites

__ Protestants

__ Minorities

__ Chicanos

__ Students

__ People

__11. If I flunk out of school my father will disinherit me or at least cut my allowance.

__12. I was unable to do well in this course because of the following illness:

__ mono

__ broken baby finger

__ acute alcoholism

__ pregnancy

__ VD

__ fatherhood

__13. You told us to be creative but you didn't tell us exactly how you wanted that done.

__14. I was creative and you said I was just shooting the bull.

__15. I don't have a reason; I just want a higher grade.

__16. The lectures were:

__ too detailed to pick out important points.

__ not explained in any sufficient detail.

__ your class was far too boring.

__ all jokes and not enough material.

__ all of the above.

__17. This course was:

__too early, I was not awake.

__at lunchtime, I was hungry.

__too late, I was tired.

__18. My (dog, cat, gerbil) (ate, wet on, threw up on) my (book, notes, paper) for this course.

__19. Other reason: __________________.

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--- JM ---

Lesson No. 101 - Quotes

Yay~! Post number 101 for me~!
Erm...I should post something special shouldn't I? :/
But I don't have anything special to post... :(
Anyway, I just found my old blog.
And the quotes I posted in it.
So behold, my favourite quotes of all time :
▪ I am not a vegetarian because I love animals, I am a vegetarian because I hate plants.
▪ Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
▪ A man who has never made a woman angry is a failure in life.
▪ Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.
▪ If you try to fail and succeed, which have you done?
▪ Laugh and the world laughs with you. Snore and you sleep alone.
▪ Man has made use of his intelligence, he invented stupidity.
▪ You don't love a woman because she is beautiful; She is beautiful because you love her.
▪ Don't play stupid with me...I'm better at it.
▪ What's worse, falling in love with a fool or being a fool for falling in love?
▪ I love you not for who you are, but who I am when I'm by your side.
▪ No person deserves your tears, and the person who does won't make you cry.
▪ Just because someone doesn't love you as you wish, doesn't mean you're not loved with all their being.
▪ A true friend is the one who holds your hand and touches your heart.
▪ The worst way to miss someone is to be seated by their side and know you'll never have him/her.
▪ Never stop smiling, Not even when you're sad - Someone might fall in love with your smile.
▪ When did I realize I was God? Well,I was praying and I suddenly realized I was talking to myself.
▪ To the world you may only be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
▪ Maybe God wants you to meet many wrong people before you meet the right one so when that happens, you will be thankful.
▪ Don't cry because it came to an end. Smile because it happened.
▪ There will always be people who will hurt you, so you need to continue trusting,just be careful.
▪ Become a better person and be sure to know who you are before meeting someone new and hoping that person knows who you are.
▪ Don't struggle so much. Best things happen when not expected.
▪ See no evil; Hear no evil; Speak no evil; Eat no evil, only bananas.

And last but not least, my most favourite quote :

▪ They say loving you is my biggest mistake, but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right? If ever I made a mistake, it's not that I love you, it's thinking that someday you'll love me too...

Note : I do not know the sources of these quotes.
Vidya, I'm sure you've read them before, so you can read it again. :P
I like going over them time after time.
Some of them are really true when you think about it.
So there you have it, my special post #101.

--- JM ---

Confessions.

err.
ignore the title.
im not going to begin confessing anything. jz put it there cos i thought it sounds cool.
[*i can imagine fiona's face right now : --________-- *]
LOL~!
100th post wat, so must spesial a bit. (and no, i didnt spell that wrong, its supposed to be pronounced spes-ss-sial, sounds nicer XD)
so im a retard. sue me.

oh, and i jz wanted to say. re : the letters post, the first letter was not meant for baby cyclops.
and in case anyone's interested, i got over him a long time ago. jz didnt feel the need to announce it to the whole world.

blardie. i ran out of words to put for tat stupid scrabulous game. idiotic thing will either give me ALL vowels or no vowels at all.
ish.

so wat do i write now? im jz posting cos jea mie wants to post and its mean of me to keep her waiting.
since i want the 100th post and she wants the 101st.

sigh. i miss high school!!! like crazy.
haha.
-i miss saying 'go and die' to fiona, and jea mie, and emily, and yan qi, and to quite alot of other people.
-and i miss calling fiona 'pid' and emily 'dee dee' and chiang huang 'jace' (of all things).
-and calling people 'people' jz to annoy the hell out of them. people being jea mie, yan qi and the two sesat boys.
-i miss having to walk two flights of stairs down to the toilet before practically every class.
-i miss walking off with fiona and making emily run all the way behind us to the toilet.
-i miss skipping prefect duty.
-i miss being the lousiest prefect senior to all the juniors who suffered under me.
(but then i suffered too. so its okaylah. the circle of torture. swt. XD)
-i actually miss pn sunita's high pitched "sacheeeen, ur SUCH a lazy boy!!".
-and i miss pn sunita telling me that rema was a bad influence, and good girls like me shouldnt mix with people like her. honestly.
-and i miss pn suseela's pengembala kambing and 'you ingat you datuk punye sekolah ah you boleh datang lambat?!'.
rotfl.
-and i miss pn tan's "vidya, fiona and emily, you all talk quite alot ah.. shh.." i think she thought we were 5-year-olds. -.-"
-and i miss how ms ruth used to call us all goats. and how scary it used to be when she was all smiley.
-and i miss watching fatimah uni going around picking up rubbish. headmistress konon.
-i miss going 'jogging', and ending up walking n gossiping instead.
-i miss being the suci-est of the SAKAIs.
-i miss going lantern walking!! stupid taylors. lantern fest fell smack in the middle of exam week this year.
-i miss arguing with fiona over who gets which part of chang min.
-i miss telling rachel to stop doing add maths. for the sole purpose of irritating the hell out of her.
*i was a brat, still am, always will be. XD*
-i miss calling lay peng taiko peng. i hardly ever do that now.
-I MISS LAUGHING LIKE CHIANG HUANG. aih. i dont think any of us do that anymore. :( but damn, that was classic.

i shud shut up. confessions was a terrible title for this post.
shouldve been memories or smthng equally gay.
bleh. so no mood. cos i have chem 2004, chem 2003 n maths 2003 to be finished BY TOMORROW MORNING.
i hate my procrastinating self.
(but i love all my other selves!! ^^)

~vid~

Pinkie, oh Pinkie, where art thou?

i miss my room.
ive been kicked out of my own room. because my cousins have been here since thursday, and being the youngest of the lot, i naturally have to sacrifice my bed, and sleep somewhere less comfortable. XD
and they've got so much of their stuff all over the floor, its impossible to walk. and its so DUSTY.
grr.
i havent been in either my room or my bathroom for THREE days.
i have been displaced into my parents' room.
i miss my room.
*sniff*
and, my pinkie keeps disappearing. because my niece seems to be very much infatuated with my pinkie. and carries him around everywhere. and then leaves him around everywhere. -.-"
don't get me wrong, i don't mind letting my nephew's and nieces share my stuff, but not pinkie.
"everything in life i share, except of course my teddy bear" -anon.
grr. sorry lah, but after three days of living with eleven very very messy and very very LOUD people, they kinda get on my nerves.

k, i shall stop whining. hehe.

on another note, i found my memory-card adaptor for my camera!! finally!
the reason i need a memory card adaptor to transfer my pics is cos my brother very generously bequeathed his camera to me, without the cable to connect it to the comp. ISH.
and then i lost the memory card-adaptor. and found it today. in a pencil box that was RIGHT NEXT TO MY COMPUTER.
bloody hell. haha. XD

yeah, so this is very much overdue, but erm, pictures:

this is the cake my mom bought for me for my bday. she said its sposed to look like pinkie. i think my mom kinda forgot im sevenTEEN. lol. but they bought me an amazing ice cream cake on saturday after tat, so okay lah. lol. i happen to be a very demanding child. XD

and this is lesley's present. thank you lesley! :)






oh, and this is wesley. whom i had to carry around for one whole day in school.
this is how the name came about : szetho wouldnt stop hugging the dog. lol. n then we were all thinking of a name for it, and wesley suggested that the dog be called wesley. after which szetho wouldnt touch the dog anymore. so the name wesley stuck as a deterrent for szetho, and the poor dog is still named wesley. XD
hes so huggable!! :)




and this is what me and my cousin so hardworkingly did yesterday.
(potato salad)
when i say me and my cousin, i mean i did it, and she watched. lol. XD

my niece is pretty random at times. she's two years old la, so..
e.g.
she was playing in the hall, and my cousin's maid asked her to move, cos she wanted to sweep, and my niece turned around and told her "don pay the poo ah"
*translation : don't play the fool ah *
LOL.
two year old summore. swt. im beginning to think we should watch our vocab around her.

sigh.
now im BOREDDDDDD.
oh, and bay : i didn't think you were seriously going to take my advice. good boy. hehe. AND you very buruk siku lah. when you buy me neslo, you're not supposed to ask me to buy neslo for you. in fact you're not supposed to ask me to buy anything for you. take my advice on this also. keke.. XD

~vid~

My memory returns..

oh, yeah, now i remember what i wanted to post earlier!! hehe..
this is my new favourite song :


and this is the part (lyrics) i love the most. its right at the beginning of the song :
I am not a child now
I can take care of myself
I mustn't let them down now
Mustn't let them see me cry
I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm too tired to listen
I'm too old to believe
All these childish stories
There is no such thing as faith
And trust and pixie dust

I try
But it's so hard to believe
I try
But I can't see what you see
I try, I try, I try...

its so relate-to-able. for now, anyway. :)

oh, and my phone decided to cong out on me. it suddenly jammed, so i turned it off, and then now, it will on, but the display is just a blank white screen, and nothing works. so i left it turned off. problematic la. ish.

and.. i can play "my heart will go on" from titanic on the guitar!! :P
although it sounds very very retarded, cos i have to keep stopping to find the correct notes on the guitar. haih.

i think im going to fail all my subjects for finals. pray for me.

~vid~

An Inconvenient Truth - Part II

quoting from Yahoo! News :


OSLO, Norway - Former Vice President Al Gore and the U.N.'s Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change won the 2007 Nobel Peace Prize Friday for their efforts to spread awareness of man-made climate change and lay the foundations for counteracting it.

"I am deeply honored to receive the Nobel Peace Prize," Gore said. "We face a true planetary emergency. The climate crisis is not a political issue, it is a moral and spiritual challenge to all of humanity."

Gore's film "An Inconvenient Truth," a documentary on global warming, won an Academy Award this year and he had been widely expected to win the prize.

The Norwegian Nobel Committee said global warming, "may induce large-scale migration and lead to greater competition for the earth's resources. Such changes will place particularly heavy burdens on the world's most vulnerable countries. There may be increased danger of violent conflicts and wars, within and between states."

Gore said he would donate his share of the $1.5 million that accompanies the prize to the Alliance for Climate Protection, a bipartisan nonprofit organization devoted to conveying the urgency of solving the climate crisis.

"His strong commitment, reflected in political activity, lectures, films and books, has strengthened the struggle against climate change," the Nobel citation said. "He is probably the single individual who has done most to create greater worldwide understanding of the measures that need to be adopted."


God bless this guy, seriously. his movie, which i so hardworkingly promoted a few posts ago, is really good. and he seems really serious, and determined to do something about this global warming problem.
it's like this one-man-change-the-world-one-state-at-a-time thing. which in today's world, is highly commendable.
but this is only an excerpt from the article, though. the whole thing is too long and some parts of it are irrelevant.
and if i put it in, i'd get more complaints than ever about how long-winded and wordy my blogging style is. -.-"

i had something else to say. but i forgot, as usual. so, heh, stopping here.

~vid~