Of weddings

In other news,

I am marrying Ranveer Singh..






...who obviously approves of this idea..





...and you are all invited to our wedding kthxgoodnight.




(P.S PRAY I DON'T FAIL CLS TOMORROW.)


~vid~

Of pythons and elephants.

Actual quote from our CLS manual, verbatim.

The normal capnogram has the outline of an elephant swallowed by a python.

Yeah-huh.

On another note, took the stupid pre-test for the CLS thats on e-learning.
Got 30%.
BECAUSE none of the answers to the questions are actually in the manual.
Not in any one of the 73 freaking pages.

Passing mark is 80% though.

Excellent.




~vid~

Equal and Opposite

I saw leaves falling to the ground today and they were backlit by the sun, and I thought that it might just be the most beautiful thing I have yet seen, and I tried to find a line or word around which I could base a poem. But nothing came. And I kept watching the leaves and thinking about the utter perfection of every piece of that moment but still I couldn't find the words. And finally I decided it was a good thing maybe, to not have words sometimes, because we don't live in words, but in paper cuts and water bottles and fingerprints; in orgasms and rust and loneliness and mirrors and dirty laundry. So I closed my eyes and lifted my face to the sun and breathed in and then out again because that's how those things go you know. Equal and opposite.

I don't know where that excerpt is from, but it's beautiful.


And now I really must get back to attempting to study the CLS manual.
Key word : attempting.


Meh.
Life.
Always gets in the way of stopping to smell the roses.
(not that I would bother stopping to smell the roses if I didn't have studying to do)

Oh the irony.





~vid~

End

Its been such a long year.

Just end.




Funny isnt it, how we think everything is just going to magically become better after the New Year.
Like you're finally going to be able to turn the last page of a horrible chapter and move on to a new one.

Life doesn't work like that, though, does it?

A chapter doesn't end until you move on from everything that's been holding you back in one place.
Just because the year ends doesn't mean the frustration does.



I have so much to write,
and no time to organise my thoughts into sentences that actually make sense.

This week.
I'll get it all out this week.




~vid~

Temper

Breathe in,
breathe out.

Count to ten.

I can handle this without losing my temper.



~vid~

I'm back! (and so is my laptop)

I have been abandoning this blog again.
Sigh. :(

Been so hectic these past few weeks, plus I've gotten my Samsung tablet,
so makes more sense to go check facebook and twitter on that instead of switching my laptop on.
Not as fun to blog on tablet though, which explains why I haven't been blogging.

Diwali Nite is over.

Finally.

FINALLY.

Ugh so much drama.

Won't talk about all that today. Might talk about it sometime later on, or maybe not at all.
We'll see.

I just kept having so many "I-told-you-so" moments in the last week leading up to Diwali Nite it wasn't even funny.
And it hurt a little bit that the lecturers didn't turn up.

Nor the HTJ staff.

Although come to think of it, I'm not sure the people from HTJ were properly invited, but that's a whole different story.
The lecturers not turning up was kind of upsetting though...its like damn syok sendiri, we went to so much effort to put up the whole show...for ourselves.

Finally got my laptop back,

all my files have been renamed as "Recovered File" and is stored in my D drive.
Its going to be hell sorting through all that and seeing what is what.

Oh well.

Gotta be done.

Would've continued using my mum's laptop, but now that one's conged out instead.

Whoops.

Hate how the resolution on Firefox changes after you reformat though.
Oh well.

We move on to Google Chrome then!
Kind of sad. I miss Firefox.

Well yes,

this was an obligatory update post.

I will try to blog more during the week.

Lots of emotional crap I need to get of my system (again).

I seem to be doing this quite constantly, eh?

Have emotional crap...vomit it all out on the blog.

Oh well, at least its a cheap form of therapy.

:D

~vid~

Annoyance.

Feel like blocking certain people on facebook.

There are two posts right at the top of my newsfeed and they're annoying the hell out of me.

No.

I can deal with this like an adult.

I can ignore a few stupid facebook posts.

Yes, I can.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Count to ten.

I will not let this affect me.

~vid~

Silver Linings

Even in all this mess,
through all this hurt,
there's still a silver lining.


I have wonderful friends.
I really do.
People who will stand by me, and take my side and be there for me no matter what.
Throughout everything.

It's amazing to suddenly wake up and realise that you have a support system.
A very solid support system that you can turn to when you really need it.


I'm not Miss Popularity,
and I may not have 10192931238 friends,
but at least I know for sure that the few that I do have are genuine.


I love you people so so much.






~vid~

Hurt.

I don't think I've ever been so badly hurt in my life.

Actually, I probably have,
but its always the first few hours of raw emotional hurt that really gets to you.




Sleep on it Vidya.
Tomorrow will be a better day.






~vid~

Feelings.

So apparently Mr Houseman has now become an MO.

And is posted in....

...
...
...
...



..
...Seremban.




Wasted je all my efforts berdrama about him leaving.
psh.
-.-





Today was my first day at A&E (I did on-call okay) and I HATE it kthxbai.


~vid~