Breaking Point

Dictionary : breaking point

n.

1. The point at which physical, mental, or emotional strength gives way under stress.
2. The point at which a condition or situation becomes critical

Everyone has a breaking point.
I reached mine today.

I can go from 0 to bitch in 6.4 seconds. Don't push me too far.

~vid~

Dayali

A long time ago, in the South of Tamil Nadu, there was this Brahmin family.
They had two daughters, the eldest of which was called Dayali.
She had learnt dancing -bharatanatyam- since she was small, and had won awards and gotten praises even at a young age.



Her prowess at Bharatanatyam, coupled with her Brahmin heritage, made her a very arrogant lady. She often looked down on people of different caste, and was rather nasty at times.

After some time, she got married,
but she did not love her husband, nor did she respect him at all.
There were many misunderstandings between them, and it was not a happy marriage.
A few years later, she got pregnant.
But, afraid that having a baby would diminish her beauty...she aborted the child.
Her relationship with her husband grew even more strained, and after a while, she left him.

He came after her, pleaded with her many times to come back to him,
but being as arrogant as she was, she refused.

Eventually, he married again, and had children with his second wife.
Dayali's parents berated her repeatedly for leaving him.
Her younger sister (who by then was happily married with children) felt very upset about her situation. Eventually, Dayali adopted one of her sister's daughters and brought her up as her own.

She then continued to dance, and teach dancing,and won much fame.
There were many proposals that continued to come for her, but she rejected them all.
She maintained a very close relationship with her sister's children, and eventually bequeathed all her property to them.

Towards the end of her life, she suffered alot.
From loneliness, and from illnesses that prevented her from dancing,
and she begged God to grant her Mokshya; to spare her from another birth.



After a very very very long time, she was reincarnated...across the oceans, into a good family.





You would freak out if I told you who she really was.

~vid~

I wish

I wish I was back in the 1st semester.

I wish I had 2 and a 1/2 years stretching out in front of me.

I wish I had joined in for orientation.

I wish I had gone more for lectures, stayed back a little longer, explored a little more, made a few more friends.



I wish I could start over.
There are things I would have done differently.

I have been here for a year and a half, and I have accomplished nothing.



I have more than 10 awesome people I call my best friends...people who would join me on all my crazy escapades, people whom I would be partner-in-crime for.
None of them are from IMU.

That's the sad part.



I am tired la!
I am tired of being low-profile, and well-behaved, and QUIET.


~vid~

Long post. :D

Yes yes I know I supposed to continue my holiday story.
But when I think about the time it will take to upload all those photos and write captions....aiyoh.
=D
So chill la yeah...
I'll put it up at some point in time.




Right now I'm sort of stressed out about exams.
12 days left.
In which I have 61 lectures to cover.
If I do 6 lectures on one of the days, then I'd have to do 5 lectures a day for the next 11.
WHICH I WILL DIE DOING.
Actually considering I started these calculations a couple of days back...I was averaging at having to do 4 lectures a day...
...BUT.
I'm excellent at the math.
Horrible at the studying.

Gosh.
It's sickening to study anatomy, and physiology, AND histology AND blood supply AND nerve supply all in one go.
I need more time.
AND I NEED SOMETHING EASY TO STUDY IN BETWEEN.
WHO DECIDED MEDICINE DIDNT NEED MATH!?
WHO DECIDED DOCTORS DIDNT NEED CALCULATION PRACTICE!?








argh.
My faci for PBL today was going on about animal experimentation.
God knows why.
I mean yeah la...I'm against cruelty to animals and all...
but I mean at the end of the day
I'm here.
In IMU.
Studying modern medicine.
Which, at some point in time will involve me advocating the use of modern drugs.
WHICH, at some point in time, would have been tested on animals.
I'm not saying I like the concept.

I'm saying...I can't turn around and go like STOP ANIMAL EXPERIMENTATION! ANIMALS HAVE RIGHTS TOO!
...because a few years down the road, prescribing those drugs is going to contribute to my livelihood.

In ethical issues, there's no right or wrong.
There are perspectives. Its about which one you decide to take.

The animal experimentation debate today (during which I was not on aforesaid animals' side, I am ashamed to admit)


made me realise that I do not like what I'm doing.
Made me wish I had stood my ground and said I would do law no matter what.

But it also made me realise.
I'm here.
I'm not studying law, I'm studying medicine.
And no matter how much I sit and throw tantrums about it, no matter how much I rebel and refuse to study...its a path I agreed to take.
Its something I must live with I suppose.
I didnt fight hard enough to study something I loved,
so in a way, I guess this is my sacrifice.
...and now, instead of just passing my way through med-school, I might as well go ahead and be a kick-ass doctor with awesome grades.
Although I think it would be too late to start that this semester.




I am ranting.
Have you noticed?





There was this one senior who used to look my way in sem2...then turn away and smile when I looked back.
lol.
And Potty.
One year later, and he's still doing his nonsense,although very toned down now.
Somehow, its not irritating anymore.
Somehow I'm flattered that there are still people who try to impress me. :)
As weird as this sounds, I'm rather fond of Potty now.
I'm not saying I like him...he's as disgusting as ever, but I'd miss him if he weren't there.
I do, however, miss that senior. ;)




I smile alot now.
Thats one thing that has changed since high-school.
I'm otherwise as mad as ever.
=D




~vid~

Day 1 : Rediscovering Miri

Hie.
I shall update you on my impromptu holiday now...since I've been putting it off so long :p



Thursday (30th Apr 2009)


After CSU (I skipped lectures, of course ;D ) I had to rush home and pack cos our flight was at 3.
To Miri.

OMG btw, so many people have been asking me :
"How you go Miri ah?? Flight ah??"
I am seriously soooo tempted to go like "No la, we drove"
-__-
If don't take flight then take what??
(reminds me of how Natasha and Wes didn't know that the Peninsula and East Msia were separated by a sea LOL.)

See.
Got no road. :p

Oh, and I think taking off is the awesomest part of flying! :D
Me like.
I'm always excited at take off...I think just as excited as I was 14 years ago on my first flight. =D
AND
God Bless whoever invented the Valsalva Manouevre, and thank god I had to read up on it for PBL.
Its the awesomest thing on the planet!...when it comes to clearing your ears during pressure changes, that is. :p



K, fast forward...we landed in Miri, went to my cousin's house
...which is really pretty btw.
Houses in Miri are pretty...and cheap. Comparatively.



And then we were bored...cos it was only around 7.
So my brother decided to drive us around Miri...to go see all our old haunts. =D
(I used to stay there, remember?)

So we visited all our old houses (we moved three times when we were there).

And the temple we used to go to.
It wasn't/still isn't a proper temple...was a sort of makeshift temple on the roof of a four-storey shop-lot.
And since it was the rooftop, there were two big water tanks there.
My most vivid memory of the temple was running around aforesaid water tanks, playing hide and seek with my gang.
LOL.

AND MY OLD SCHOOL.
THIS ONE I HAVE PICTURES OF!

=D








Err.
I think that's all we did la the first day...just drive around Miri.
Day 2 was the one that rocked. :p

~vid~

Quotes. Yay.

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, columnist of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
-To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more :

1. Life isn't fair,but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument.. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God.. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate,resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others.You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret,you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful,beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19.. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words : 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

--- J Me ---

I don't want to be nice anymore.

Enough is enough la.
I'm done trying to be nice to people.

Call me arrogant,
call me prude,
call me weird...
If you can't accept me for who I am, just don't bother pretending to be my friend at all.
Being acquaintances would do.

If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the beat he hears, however near or far away.
~Author unknown~

Maybe my drummer is different from yours.

~vid~

Rant No. 2349

I cannot afford to go shopping every week.
I cannot afford to eat out at high-class restaurants every week.
I wasn't born rich,
nor do I have a scholarship allowance to throw away on expensive clothes or things I do not need.

To be completely honest,
I LIKE just sitting at home.

Fun, for me does NOT have to consist of spending lots of money at expensive outlets,
and taking 12034829837428347 pictures everytime I go out, just so I can come back and upload them all on facebook to let the world see how I've been having SO much fun.

Sometimes I have more responsibilities to attend to,
and I cannot make time for your intimate bonding sessions that involve people giggling for hours on end.
Once, or twice I can handle.
Not every week.

And I do not go out on weekends cos I'm back home.
Why?
Tell you what, I let y'all answer this for me la...
Would I rather spend time with a family who cares for me sincerely, and has provided for me, and has stuck by me through thick and thin for the past 19 years...
...or would I want to spend my weekends with a bunch of rich kids I've known a couple of months whom I see every weekday anyway??


And another thing.
The last time I checked,
There is NOTHING out of place with the way I dress, or sit or talk or walk...
So could y'all bloody STOP STARING?!

~vid~

Heh.

Okeh.
I know I is supposed to be blogging...
...but I is lazy.

I will try tonite la k.
=D

~vid~

Greetings from Miri!

HIE! =D
I is in Miri.
Like, in Sarawak.
=D

I'm pretty sure most of you don't know that I used to live here.
We moved here when I was 4, and we left when I was 7...and I haven't been here since.
Now, 11 n a 1/2 years later, I'm rediscovering Miri.

There's so much I want to blog about, but I'm sooo supremely tired, and I doubt I'd have any time to blog tomorrow either.
I promise a superrr long, blow-by-blow account on Monday k?
WITH PHOTOS.

I have PBL Monday morning,
and I'm only going back to KL on Sunday afternoon.
I am soooo dead I tell you.
Nvm, I SHALL finish my PBL on Sunday, by hook or by crook, even if the sky falls down.

(haha damn dramatic)

I GOT LICKED BY A BEAR TODAY!
=D
(baby bear la, but still!)




~vid~