Waiting..

...for Episode 6 of OUAT to load.

IT LOADED.
I mean, just now.
IT LOADED,
THEN THIS STUPID VIDEOBB TELLS ME THAT I'VE ALREADY WATCHED 72 MINUTES SO I HAVE TO WAIT AN HOUR.
WHICH IS BULLSHIT BECAUSE I WATCHED EP 5 AT 2PM AND THEN I WENT TO SLEEP SO THAT I COULD COME BACK AND LOAD EP 6 WITHOUT HAVING TO WAIT. UGH. WHY.


12 mins left to wait of the one hour.
I have apparently just spent 48 whole minutes grumbling in my head and staring at my laptop screen.



First week of Ophthalmo is almost over and I haven't actually learnt anything.
And I'm not studying either. I'm either writing random status-es on facebook or blogging here/tumblr in between episodes.
sigh.

We're going to PD tomorrow.
And K.Pilah on Friday.
And the boy isn't coming on Friday.
Normally I wouldn't have cared, but with all this awkwardness going on, its just nicer to have someone one your side around yeah.
I'll just have to be all awkward penguin on Friday by myself.
sighh.
Oh well.
Another week and then 2 whole months away from this trainwreck!


7 minutes to go.

In other news, I wouldn't mind marrying Max George's voice. :3



Oh oh, does anyone want to see my wallpaper?
(laptop wallpaper I mean)



I love love love love this man.
They honestly couldn't have chosen anyone who could play the part of Prince Charming better.



~vid~

Warzone

I throw my armour down
And leave the battleground
For the final time now
I know I'm running from a warzone



Warzone - The Wanted


askdjsjfhjsdfhafgh Nathan's voice in the beginning.


This song came out sometime ago, really.
The whole album did...sometime in November, I think.

Their music has matured somewhat from the first album. So proud of them :')
Love a couple of other songs on the album as well, haven't got around to listening to all the songs though. :(

Never got around to blogging about it either because I've been so busy.
I can't actually tell you what I've been so busy doing, because in retrospect I haven't been doing much at all,
but it's just the exhaustion and the frustration from the past one and a half years catching up.

Haven't had a proper holiday since September last year,
and lately with all the Diwali Nite drama I've just been forcing myself to wake up everyday and get on with life for the sake of it, and hang in there just a little bit longer until the holidays (ahem...I mean the selectives period *cough cough*)

Less than two weeks left!

Yay!


But then of course I'll spend the whole first week freaking out about the trip to Ireland.
I've never travelled alone in my life..
..no I'm lying, I have...but that was to JB and it was a one hour flight so it doesn't really count ok.
And I've never actually travelled out of Asia before,
so its like my first time ever flying long distance,
and I'm doing it alone.
o.O

Shit.

And I'm transit-ing in Amsterdam and its like holy shit what if I'm late and I miss the next plane or I get lost and don't know which gate to go to or..
I don't know.
I get lost very easily.
:/

And on the flight to Amsterdam...its like a 10 hour flight (I think)...or 13 hours or something.
I would need to pee.
o.o
I have honestly never considered the possibility of having to pee on a plane omg.
What if I don't find the bathroom.
Or.
I don't know.
I don't want to pee on the plane!

:|


AND AND after I land in Dublin omg what if I don't find the baggage reclaim and get stuck there for years,
or what if after I collect my baggage I don't know how to get out of the airport,
or what if I get out of the airport and don't know how to get to the bus station,
or what if I get to the bus station and don't get on the right bus,
or what if.
I don't know.
Can't think of any other worst case scenarios really.


Aaaaaaaaaah.


This is probably the longest blog post I've written in awhile.

I have to blog on Firefox, because seriously, I can NOT fix the font on Chrome.
-_-
But I have to use Chrome for everything else, because the resolution on Firefox sucks.
See.
People in developing countries have first world problems too ok.



I'm actually blogging while waiting for Episode 3 of Once Upon A Time to load.
:D
I'm addicted seriously why are there only seven episodes out so far :(


AND WHY ISN'T THIS WEEK'S HIMYM EPISODE OUT YET.
ARE THEY GOING TO MAKE US WAIT ANOTHER WEEK AFTER THAT HORRIBLE EPISODE LAST WEEK.
I STILL WON'T FORGIVE THEM FOR WHAT THEY DID LAST WEEK OMG WHY DID THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT SO BLOODY SADDDDDD ARGH.




On another note,
I had no idea The Offspring sang Pretty Fly For A White Guy!

I think their music is growing on me :p




Andddd..yeah I've run out of things to rant on about.
I had more to say, really (I always have more to say) but I can't remember what I wanted to say.

oh well.

If I remember then you guys get another blog post! :D

(cheh wah like as though I'm some celeb blogger than people wait for new posts from me pfft)




OH AND I AM SO UPSET THAT I DIDN'T GET TO GO FOR RICHARD MARX'S CONCERT IN GENTING ON SUNDAY.
AAAAAAAAAAH.

Seriously.
I grew up listening to my brother play Right Here Waiting and Now and Forever on the piano.
Since I was like 4.
Mention Richard Marx, and I remember my childhood. :3

AND THEN THE MAN FREAKING COMES TO MALAYSIA AND I CAN'T GO BECAUSE I'M SUPPOSED TO SAVE MONEY FOR IRELAND.
WHY.
WHYYYY.

:(




Alright, this really is it.
Toodles~!




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Once Upon A Time

Oh my god.

Watched the first episode of Once Upon A Time...

...

...

...I LIKE IT.

I REALLY LIKE IT.

Dammit now I'm going to be more distracted than ever.

Paige, if you're reading this, thank you for recommending!
I'm hooked :p


~vid~

You're not real

WHY IS THIS WEEK'S EP OF HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER SO SAD!?
WHYYYY.

They made us wait one extra week for this ep and they made it so sadddddd!
:'(

ESPECIALLY THE END WHEN SHE GOES "YOU'RE NOT REAL"

WHAT.
NO.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.


I am going to cry myself to sleep now ok bye.




~vid~



p.s. Corey Gray's voice is pure sex.

emotions

Allenge avalku endara iron cheyanne?

Every fucking weekend I keep house for you, and the one weekend where I'm losing my mind you can't iron a few extra clothes?

ugh.
Anger.
Frustration.
I need to scream.


~vid~

Eye-deep

Can we just cancel this whole trip?

I am this close to breaking down and crying.
But that wouldn't solve anything at all, would it?

~vid~

Of weddings

In other news,

I am marrying Ranveer Singh..






...who obviously approves of this idea..





...and you are all invited to our wedding kthxgoodnight.




(P.S PRAY I DON'T FAIL CLS TOMORROW.)


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Of pythons and elephants.

Actual quote from our CLS manual, verbatim.

The normal capnogram has the outline of an elephant swallowed by a python.

Yeah-huh.

On another note, took the stupid pre-test for the CLS thats on e-learning.
Got 30%.
BECAUSE none of the answers to the questions are actually in the manual.
Not in any one of the 73 freaking pages.

Passing mark is 80% though.

Excellent.




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Equal and Opposite

I saw leaves falling to the ground today and they were backlit by the sun, and I thought that it might just be the most beautiful thing I have yet seen, and I tried to find a line or word around which I could base a poem. But nothing came. And I kept watching the leaves and thinking about the utter perfection of every piece of that moment but still I couldn't find the words. And finally I decided it was a good thing maybe, to not have words sometimes, because we don't live in words, but in paper cuts and water bottles and fingerprints; in orgasms and rust and loneliness and mirrors and dirty laundry. So I closed my eyes and lifted my face to the sun and breathed in and then out again because that's how those things go you know. Equal and opposite.

I don't know where that excerpt is from, but it's beautiful.


And now I really must get back to attempting to study the CLS manual.
Key word : attempting.


Meh.
Life.
Always gets in the way of stopping to smell the roses.
(not that I would bother stopping to smell the roses if I didn't have studying to do)

Oh the irony.





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End

Its been such a long year.

Just end.




Funny isnt it, how we think everything is just going to magically become better after the New Year.
Like you're finally going to be able to turn the last page of a horrible chapter and move on to a new one.

Life doesn't work like that, though, does it?

A chapter doesn't end until you move on from everything that's been holding you back in one place.
Just because the year ends doesn't mean the frustration does.



I have so much to write,
and no time to organise my thoughts into sentences that actually make sense.

This week.
I'll get it all out this week.




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