Temper

Breathe in,
breathe out.

Count to ten.

I can handle this without losing my temper.



~vid~

I'm back! (and so is my laptop)

I have been abandoning this blog again.
Sigh. :(

Been so hectic these past few weeks, plus I've gotten my Samsung tablet,
so makes more sense to go check facebook and twitter on that instead of switching my laptop on.
Not as fun to blog on tablet though, which explains why I haven't been blogging.

Diwali Nite is over.

Finally.

FINALLY.

Ugh so much drama.

Won't talk about all that today. Might talk about it sometime later on, or maybe not at all.
We'll see.

I just kept having so many "I-told-you-so" moments in the last week leading up to Diwali Nite it wasn't even funny.
And it hurt a little bit that the lecturers didn't turn up.

Nor the HTJ staff.

Although come to think of it, I'm not sure the people from HTJ were properly invited, but that's a whole different story.
The lecturers not turning up was kind of upsetting though...its like damn syok sendiri, we went to so much effort to put up the whole show...for ourselves.

Finally got my laptop back,

all my files have been renamed as "Recovered File" and is stored in my D drive.
Its going to be hell sorting through all that and seeing what is what.

Oh well.

Gotta be done.

Would've continued using my mum's laptop, but now that one's conged out instead.

Whoops.

Hate how the resolution on Firefox changes after you reformat though.
Oh well.

We move on to Google Chrome then!
Kind of sad. I miss Firefox.

Well yes,

this was an obligatory update post.

I will try to blog more during the week.

Lots of emotional crap I need to get of my system (again).

I seem to be doing this quite constantly, eh?

Have emotional crap...vomit it all out on the blog.

Oh well, at least its a cheap form of therapy.

:D

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Annoyance.

Feel like blocking certain people on facebook.

There are two posts right at the top of my newsfeed and they're annoying the hell out of me.

No.

I can deal with this like an adult.

I can ignore a few stupid facebook posts.

Yes, I can.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Count to ten.

I will not let this affect me.

~vid~

Silver Linings

Even in all this mess,
through all this hurt,
there's still a silver lining.


I have wonderful friends.
I really do.
People who will stand by me, and take my side and be there for me no matter what.
Throughout everything.

It's amazing to suddenly wake up and realise that you have a support system.
A very solid support system that you can turn to when you really need it.


I'm not Miss Popularity,
and I may not have 10192931238 friends,
but at least I know for sure that the few that I do have are genuine.


I love you people so so much.






~vid~

Hurt.

I don't think I've ever been so badly hurt in my life.

Actually, I probably have,
but its always the first few hours of raw emotional hurt that really gets to you.




Sleep on it Vidya.
Tomorrow will be a better day.






~vid~

Feelings.

So apparently Mr Houseman has now become an MO.

And is posted in....

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...
...
...



..
...Seremban.




Wasted je all my efforts berdrama about him leaving.
psh.
-.-





Today was my first day at A&E (I did on-call okay) and I HATE it kthxbai.


~vid~

SAQs

So.

There's an exam tomorrow.
Well, actually there are three exams, an hour-long each, spaced out between 8am and 3.30pm.
Because IMU simply excels at scheduling things.
Really.


Am I prepared for them?
Hell, no.

Am I freaking out?
Very much so, yes.

And am I studying?
...erm. I haz a headache? :(



How on earth did they even let me into IMU oh my god.


~vid~

Weight

WHY ARE SOME PEOPLE SO ANNOYING OMG.

I've recently started running again.
Because I'm trying to lose weight.

I honestly don't know how I let myself go so much.
I HAVE BECOME SO FAT NOW OK.
Yes.
I think I put on close to 10kg or something.
Over the course of the past 3 years la, BUT STILL.

So anyway,
we've recently started going to the gym again (I've mentioned this before) and that helps with the motivation bit of it right?


Anyway,
was talking to a friend earlier, and was griping about how much I'd eaten today.

Its Diwali!
There's so much fooooood!

And I was all like omg I ate like a pig I'll have to run extra tomorrow.


And she's all "why are you so self-conscious?"


.
.
.

Excuse me.

Then she goes on about how she doesn't understand why I want to lose weight,
and how many sizes I want to go down (wtf you don't ask people things like that),
and whether it would be economical to lose weight since I would have to buy new clothes.

I'm pretty much wtf-ing at every sentence by now..

...and then she goes like what about your winter clothes for Dec?

And I'm like I bought them already.

And she actually actually asks me, which size, current or new?


WTF.
WTF.

PEOPLE BUY WINTER CLOTHES CAN BUY LOSE A BIT RIGHT. NO NEED WEAR SUPER FITTING WINTER COAT AND WALK AROUND RIGHT WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM WITH MY WANTING TO LOSE WEIGHT HUH?

I don't get people.

Girls.

They can be super-freaking skinny, and all you have to do is tell them
"oh hey, I'm trying to lose weight"
and they go all bonkers on you and freak out and then try to lose weight themselves.

Psycho ke?

Of course this doesn't apply to all girls la. (don't get offended for no reason ok)


I mean, I want to lose weight, my problem la kan?
Am I not allowed to try and work towards a size I can be happy with?

ugh.

Some people. -_-


~vid~

Rant

Wasn't going to post on here,
because I'm still using my mum's laptop, and the font is still crap on Google Chrome,

but quick rant :


So I was talking to my friend about what to do if a patient came in with migraine
(seeing as the previous fam med group got this question for EOP)

and I list out a few things, and then I'm like "what else do we have to rule out? I can't think of anything else"

And aforesaid friend goes "Oh. Alot of things to rule out for migraine la"


.
.
.

And I'm waiting, and she's not saying anything else.
It wasn't an opening statement for a discussion, it was just a statement.

Oh.
Got alot of things.



LIKE NO. SHIT.
PEOPLE ASKING YOU NICELY RIGHT.



Ugh!
Geram!




~vid~

Updaaaaaaaate!

So as you all know (actually you wouldn't know because I haven't mentioned it yet) my laptop crashed on Wednesday,
...which, incidentally was when I finally sat down to do my EBM!
...but yeah, got it done on my mum's laptop,
and I've pretty much hijacked her laptop til mine decides to stop fucking pms-ing.

Probably will get it reformatted this week since I'm at home for GP Posting.
NOT looking forward to that.
The GP posting I mean...granted its only 8-1 everyday, but. ugh. yeah. not really excited about it or anything.

I actually tried posting something on the blog couple of days back,

but somehow I couldn't edit the font (it was really huge) so it looked like I was shouting on the blog.
Which was weird.
So deleted that post.

Not sure if any of you saw that during the 5 mins that it was up on the blog.

Praying that I can edit the font on this one, because I'm not going to delete it after typing all this out,

so its just going to sit there and look retarded.

yep.

I love love love Alex Day *insert less than three here*

So.

uhm.

Confession time.

Well not really.

I just want to rant to someone,

but can't think of anyone who would consider this important enough to listen,

so I'm just going to type it all out here and pray no one from IMU reads this because it would totally affect my *cough* image.

I don't know why I was expecting something phenomenal to happen on my birthday,

(okay okay fine, something phenomenal to happen in my love life, but yeah..)

but.

well.

it didnt.

So that was sort of anticlimatic.

Like, the birthday just came and went, yeah.

And it was my 21st.

If that isn't an indication of how fucking sad my life is, then I don't know what is.

But yeah yeah, anyway,

so Diwali Nite is coming up, and I'm pretty heavily involved (because I have nothing better to do with aforesaid sad life of mine...lets just pretend EOP isnt week after next)
and I don't know why, but I've sort of had this hope that Mr Houseman would be attending and...I don't know, something would finally fucking happen!
Like you know, he would do something more than just glare and/or smirk arrogantly in my direction (because hes a git I don't know why I have a crush on him really he's so stupid)

I apparently don't know alot of things.

And now, apparently (I need to expand my vocab, srsly) he's leaving.

For good.

Because his housemanship is ending.

Did I mention he was a Senior HO? If not I'm mentioning it now. ok.

So yeah.

Its ending, he's leaving, Diwali Nite is a whole fucking month away,

so he probably wont be here for that,

and then nothing will happen,

and it will be such a fucking anticlimax,

and oh god. He's leaving.

For good.

That is not fucking fair!

WHY MUST THEY ALL LEAVE? WHY?

Right so its 3am, and I've got to be up at 7 to learn how to make Idly (of all things ugh) so it would be perfect timing for me to go wallow in self-pity on my bed until I fall asleep.

yesh.

On a completely irrelevant note,
I need a new facebook profile picture.
Finally changed it, but the only decent one I can find is one in which I look like a sleepy teddy bear (according to Rachel...well, she said I looked like a teddy bear, the sleepy is of my own admission)

Yesh.

He's leaving, you guys, he's leaving!

:(

Sigh ok bye.

~vid~