Where Did All The Kiasuness Go?

bleh. just finished MUET. so i'm gonna give myself exactly 15 minutes to do absolutely nothing productive with my life, before i go study physics.
the thing about physics is its so very very easy if you understand it.
i don't.
i die.

yeah, so that basically sums it up.
MUET sucked. but what the heck, i just need to pass.
but thanks to the stupid MUET exam, which is FIVE freaking hours, i wasted a morning that could have been spent studying physics.
err.. spent trying to study physics.

i miss all those kiasu people in SU.
i mean, G4 does have kiasu people lah, but the thing about G4 is that their kiasu-ness doesn't bother me.
in SU on the other hand, the kiasuness was so extreme, that it made me kiasu.
come to think of it, i miss rachel. and lay peng. and emilia.
and it used to drive me insane that i played the fool so much in form 4 that my results were nowhere near theirs in form 5.
but at least it made me driven enough to want to try.
(and i didn't do too badly in the end. hehe. perasan moment.)
this year damn takde motivation lah.
no.. wats it called? competitive spirit?
everybody minds their own business. no more "yay! i got higher than you! muahaha."
i think next year, wherever i go, i shall go find the group of nerdiest people ever, and hang out with them.
at least then i'd study.
grr.
yer, i screwed up lah this year.
so i should go fix it. now.
sigh.

~vid~

p.s. if MU lose today, i'll cry. *touchwood*