:O

I am in shock.

Two of the characters in a story I'm reading just died.
*chokes back sobs*

~vid~

p.s. yes I am THAT jobless :D

p.s.2 Fixed my highlights. I look less orange now. Phew. :D

Highlights, piercings and spontaneity

Whee I just watched The Proposal.
Yes I am outdated. Sue me.
Its such a cute movie!! :)

And the puppy is zomg super cute. Esp when it gets carried off by the eagle.
wth!
I wants a puppy like that! :(

And Ryan Reynolds is hot.

And the ending damn adorable.

And I'm a total sucker for romantic comedies with happy endings :D

And I want to watch The Princess and The Frog! :):)
I'm also a sucker for princess Disney cartoons...cept for Snow White.
I really don't like Snow White. I have no idea why.

AND I want to watch Alice in Wonderland (that IS the name of Tim Burton's new movie, rite?)
I actually really dislike Alice in Wonderland...the story I mean. Its decidedly confusing and rather depressing and..I duno. Not my kind of story.
And I wasn't planning to watch it at all...UNTIL I saw Johnny Depp's name in the credits.
:D
Johnny Depp = must watch, no matter how weird he looks or how weird the movie may turn out. LOL.


I want to change my appearance.

LOL yes that was random.
But. yes.
I'm kind of tired of how I look.

Thinking of getting new highlights, my old ones have grown out/faded and I'm bored with them. I want another colour now.
But then again, for safety's sake I might just stick with brown. Bleh.

I'm currently in love with piercings.
Trying to get my mom to agree to permanent additional piercings. The prev ones I had didn't last very long.
Meh.
Trying to get her to agree to a tattoo as well. Buttttt I think I may have ALOT less luck with that. :(

I should be more spontaneous.
Note : Spontaneity and randomness are two different things.
I'm impulsive, and I'm gila random, but I'm not very spontaneous.
I do believe I'm contradicting myself here.
Impulsive and spontaneous imply the same thing.
-__-
My English has rotted. Completely. I blame medicine.

Okeh I lazy to type now.
And I have nothing much to say anyway.

I WANT NEW CLOTHESSSSSS :'(
Someone donate lots of money to me please :D


~vid~

Post-exam update

HIE :D

I dahm lazy to blog nowadays.
Duno why.
Meh.

My BS lectures are set to be at 4pm almost everyday.
WTH la.
1 hour per day summore.
Cant they like just give us 3 hours a day for one week? Instead of one hour a day for 3??

Some holiday la rite.

Ok I stop complaining.

Christmas Carol is a very cacat movie.
I wouldn't recommend taking kids. Its quite disturbing.
I don't like Jim Carrey and I don't much like CGI cartoons/movie/wtv-u-call-it.
(except some la. Monsters Inc. was kee-yewt :D So was Bolt. And uh.yeah. thats it)
But then our options were Christmas Carol and New Moon.
I'd pick CGI-ed Jim Carrey over constipated vamps anyday man. Altho Jacob is hot. And the werewolves are cute..from the trailer anyway.
But still not worth watching in cinema.
I am prejudiced. Sue me.

My computer crashed...AGAIN.
Stupid graphic card.
Never buy a laptop with NVIDIA graphics man.
a) cannot play FIFA.
b) Burn damn fast.
(ok la it burnt after almost 2 years BUT STILL. LAPTOPS ARE SUPPOSED TO LAST LONGER)
Anyway. I dowan change laptop *cries* cos I love the one I have.
And I dahm malas transfer everything.

But like I said. It crashed.
So I using my dads laptop now.
I cant save pictures or stuff here, cos like duh, its not my laptop...so this shall be a pictureless post. :D

I'm sleepy.

And uh. I wanted to say something.
Then I forgot.
nvm when I remember I shall blog again. LOL.


Something I wrote sometime ago :
You know what?
I had every right to fall in love with you. And I had every right to think that maybe there was a chance that you’d fall in love with me too.
I’m going to fight for that chance.
I’m tired of being the girl who sits on the sidelines, watching things slip away, saying “maybe it just wasn’t meant to be”.
So I’m going to fight for you.
No more regrets.

Cross fingers for me?
:)

~vid~

p.s. I suka the resolution on my dads laptop. whee :D
p.s.2 HOW COME THEY NEVER ASK PROPER PATHO QUESTIONS FOR SUMMATIVES?? Tot we sposed to be learning stuff that helps us during clinical. -_-

She's your sister, bro.

CLICK TO ENLARGE.

Cuz itz funneh. :D

Yes yes I'm studying.

~vid~

I am an incredibly stupid person.

Stressed out.

Excuse the language.
Im losing my mind.

~vid~

I'm being stupid.

okeh.
I have to write this out somewhere, so that it stops playing around in my head and interfering with my attempts at studying.
(key word : attempts, yeah)

Right so.
In letter form.



Hi.

I was madly in love with you at one point. And then I got over you, because you're stupid. And then I wasn't over you. And then I was. FOR GOOD.
And then now I'm not.
Because you're hardworking and you motivate me and whenever I think of you I'm motivated to study, and do my best and stop being lazy.
And because my mother keeps asking about you. Because she likes you. Because you're bloody perfect.
So FINE. I'm not over you. Happy?

p.s. You're still stupid.




Okay.
Now I shall go study summore.
In 3 days, I have read 5 lecture notes.
FML.
I should stop writing my own notes. Too damn time-consuming.

~vid~

Channeling spirits

Dammit I have so much more to study.

Someone explain to me why I'm freaking out over Summatives when I've never actually freaked out for any other exam before?
I feel like I'm channeling the spirit of some hardworking, perfectionist ghost.



Screw it la.
You've affected me much much more than I would care to admit.
Stupid well-behaved hardworking perfect boy who lives on the other end of the world.
*sulks*


~vid~

Letter to Santa

Me likey this picture! :D
Perfect-ish esp since Christmas is coming up n all.

'Tis officially my Wishlist/Letter-to-Santa. :D

Not that the fella has a gf, but you get what I mean.
Or you don't.
Doesn't matter.

*hearts the picture*

whee. :D
p.s. if you cant see whats written clearly, then like uh..click on it kay. Biggerfy it.
My brain is fried.



ZOMG VIDYA GO STUDY.
*slaps self...hard*


~vid~

We Can Try

I love this song. :)
Like super love it.

We Can Try - Between The Trees

We Can Try - Between The Trees



- Between the Trees Lyrics

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At the same time, I'm also addicted to 3 by Britney.
I have the randomest taste in music :D

P.S. Never say never by The Fray is an incredibly depressing song. Weird. And depressing.

Dammit. Another 69 lectures to go.
I am an idiot.

~vid~

Behavioural Science for Selectives

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD...they gave me behavioural science for selectives.

B.E.H.A.V.I.O.U.R.A.L S.C.I.E.N.C.E

For the record I applied for the language thing.
Because I miss doing language...like crazy. AND I was hoping I'd get it AND I was SO looking forward to analysing Oedipus the King and doing the drama and all.

AND THEN THEY GIVE ME BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE.


WHICH WAS MY LAST OPTION.
MY. LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAST. OPTION.

WHY?
WHYYYYY?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

I haven't done anything to deserve this!
I mean, I give money to homeless people sometimes!



2. Assignments

There are two assignments for this selective. The first is a behaviour modification project which is an individual assessment involving 2500-word report. The second will assess group performance. Student will be assigned to a group to conduct an interview with someone who is currently undergoing the process of changing his/her behaviour. Each assignment is to assess not only the student’s theoretical competence and thinking, but also their capacity for empathy.


Do you see what I see?

2500-word report.

INTERVIEW.

AND we have to attend lectures!
I have skipped EVERY BS lecture since Sem 1..simply because they bore me TO DEATH.
And cos I sleep in them.
And cos I don't understand half of what they're getting at.
AND. NOW. I HAVE TO SPEND MY HOLIDAYS ATTENDING BS LECTURES.


WHY GOD WHY!?

(Ok me thinks this is karma. BUT STILL)

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???

*shuts self up in room and cries self to sleep*

~vid~


P.S. Whee. Sorry. Couldn't resist the urge to drama in this post ;)

Chewing Gum

Do you know the reason why Singapore government restricts the citizens not to eat chewing gum?
Here is the story....
One day Lee Kwan Yew went to Thailand and had lobster at the dinner with the Thai King. After Lee finished, he asked the King.
Lee : Your Highness, what can you do with this lobster shell?
King : We cannot do anything with it, we just throw it away.
Lee : Oh, no. In our country, we send it to the factory and produce some prawn cracker.
Then Lee had an orange. After he finished, he asked the King.
Lee : What can you do with the orange skin?
King : We cannot do anything. We just throw it away.
Lee : Oh, no. In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce some orange jam.
Then Lee asked for some chewing gum. After he finished, he put on the plate and asked the King.
Lee : What can you do with the chewing gum?
King : Oh, no. We just throw it away.
Lee : In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce condoms send it to Thailand.
Lee said good-bye to the King and the King asked Lee.
King : What can you do with the condom when you finish using it?
Lee : We cannot do anything. We throw it away.
King : In Thailand when we finish using the condom, we send it to the factory to produce chewing gum and send it back to Singapore!!!
Note : All jokes are not written by me. I received them through e-mail.
- J Me-

IT PAYS TO PAY ATTENTION!

First-year students at U.C. Davis Vet school were receiving their first anatomy class with a real, dead cow. They all gathered around the surgery table with the body covered with a white sheet.
The professor started the class by telling them, 'In Veterinary Medicine it is necessary to have two important qualities as a doctor: The first is that you not be disgusted by anything involving the animal body.
As an example, the Professor pulled back the sheet, stuck his finger in the rear end of the dead cow, withdrew it and stuck his finger in his mouth.
'Go ahead and do the same thing, 'he told his students. The students freaked out, hesitated for several minutes, but eventually took turns sticking a finger in the anal opening of the dead cow and sucking on it.
When everyone finished, the Professor looked at them and said, 'The second most important quality is observation. I stuck in my middle finger and sucked on my index finger.'
Now, learn to pay attention. Life's tough, but it's even tougher if you're stupid.

- J Me -

Compact Fluorescent Lamps

CANNONBALL!

Heeeee :D

Don't ask me why I'm in such a good mood when I STILL HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING AND I HAVE SEVENTY SIX LECTURES TO FINISH STUDYING BY NEXT WEDNESDAY.
*claws eyes out*



My eyes hurt.
So does my neck.
And my brain feels like it has been replaced with cotton wool.

AHHHHH...BRAIN INFECTION!
*dies*

Dammit I just love drama :D
(as in like being dramatic la yeah)



I've been trying to study Hormones of Endocrine Pancreas since Sunday...but everytime I look at it I just space out.
I've read it about 5 times already.
But reading blankly and reading-to-study are two completely different issues altogether right?
Meh.

I. MUST. habiskan that hormone lecture by today laaa.


To finish studying by next Wed...actually by next Thurs, considering Wed is included in my calculations..
I'd have to study 8 lectures a day on average, and squeeze in 4 lectures leftover somewhere in between.
My maths is excellent. I should have become an accountant.
LOL. Sorry syok-sendiri-ing.
:D



WHEE.
I wish next Thursday was here.
So that I can go cannonball FOR REAL. in some random swimming pool.



I love being happy.
I shouldn't be happy. I should be depressed and stressed out and sad and miserable and...I'm not.
I defy the laws of making-sense-ness.

RAWR. :D


You know you love me ;)
~vid~

Demoralized

The emotional volcano I've been sitting on has been threatening to erupt for the past Idunnohowmany years.
And erupt it did, in all its messy glory...yesterday.


I knew I was messed up, but I guess I never knew I was this messed up.
Funnily enough, my mother agrees.


"You are one messed up child. I don't know why, but you are. And we have to fix that"

"What has happened to you in the past has scarred you badly whether you admit it or not. And I can't believe you walked around with all that baggage for all this time...why couldn't you tell us?"

"It would be really difficult for someone to be with you. You have alot to sort through with yourself before you can be stable enough to maintain a relationship. Don't break someone else's heart when you yourself aren't sure what you want"



She's right. I do have alot to sort through.
Maybe once I've cleared up everything I'd be less prone to mood swings and periods of extreme depression.
Maybe I'll be permanently happy, instead of feeling like I'm sitting on a pendulum and wondering when its going to swing the other way again.




...

But the last bit of what she said hurts the most.
Mostly because it hit home...hard.

Dammit I feel like crap now.


~vid~


p.s. this picture is very cool. courtesy of deviantart.

Ethmoid Sinus Infection

Remember how I said on Thursday that I was recovering from my flu-thingy and I was feeling loads better and etc etc??

Yesterday morning I woke up and blew my nose (the way I usually do in the mornings) and I FOUND BLOOD STREAKS IN MY PHLEGM.
I pretty much freaked out and died la ok.
I mean. Blood in phlegm. First thing I tot of was tb.
><
Then I managed to figure out that was NOT the probable diagnosis cos well I wasn't coughing up any phlegm really..it was mostly stuck in my nose or pharynx-abouts.
AND my nose hurt like hell.



So anyway.
Ran to doctor.



Apparently I have an ethmoid sinus infection.
Which was pretty severe.
To the extent a few capillaries surrounding the sinus burst.

-__-

Ethmoid sinus infections are not at all common, and are mostly the result of a maxillary sinus infection that has been left untreated and thus spread all the way to the ethmoid sinus.

Serves me right for not going to see the doctor two weeks ago la kannnnnn.

And then right.
After running thru all the meds he was prescribing with me (yes he knows I'm a med student and so explains every single detail),
hes like
"Oh. By the way. Watch out for any puffiness under your eyes, or any eye pain or fever or anything ok? Because as you know, there's only a thin bone separating the sinus from your brain. Theres a high possibility it might lead to an infection in your brain"

O_O
Gee. How VERY reassuring...NOT!

I bloody almost had a heart attack and died right there okay. Wtf.
There should be some rule where doctors should NOT tell students about worst case scenarios when aforesaid student consults the doctor as a patient.



My neck hurts. Ow. ow. ow.
I thought it was something to do with the way I'd slept yesterday, but its still hurting today...despite all the Ponstans and medicated-plasters and deep heat rubs.
MEH.
And I'm still not studying.
And I haven't done PBL.
And I'm in pain.

I'm also hungry.
So buh-bye I want to go eat.:D



This update is to let you know HOW close I am to possibly getting a brain infection and dying and therefore is directed mainly towards making you realise that subconsciously you absolutely love me and would die if I wasn't here to entertain you with my nonsense almost every day.

Heehee :D

P.S. I 'm not joking la okay. I really do have an ethmoid sinus infection. -__-

~vid~

Of cos he got girlfriend la!

Simply because this made me laugh like a mad cow for 2 minutes.



ĵ ме * ••• [ 媚 ] says:
funny
when u imagine yan qi saying Of course he’d have a girlfriend! Hes so hot, he can’t still be single

vid says:
funny?
actually
she did say that
in that order

ĵ ме * ••• [ 媚 ] says:
word by word?
not

vid says:
altho
she said it as more like

ĵ ме * ••• [ 媚 ] says:
of course he gt girlfren la! so hot! cannot be single

vid says:
of cos he got girlfriend la!
so hot
takkan single



Funny rite? :p

I syok sendiri-ing now. }}}
hee. :D

~vid~

Micturition

Hi.
I haven't been blogging. Not that anyone cares.
Nvm I want to syok sendiri and pretend there are people who are deprived of my mo liu-ness when I don't blog for a few days.

For the record, mo liu = too free/jobless/etc.
I think la.

Meh.




Still recovering from a idunowhattocallit...infection? thingamajiggy thats been plaguing my life for the past 2 weeks.
Started out sore-throat-ish..then turned into severe sinusitis-minus-sorethroat and eventually progressed to asthma for about 2 days...then back to mild sinusitis...
..then touchwood today I is feeling loads better.
And no I didn't go see a doctor.
Cos its damn mafan to go see a doctor when the doctor knows you're a medical student.
Later doctor give long long lecture.
-_-





I want to write stories.
:(
Currently following 8 different stories on Fictionpress at the moment.
...cos I'm an idiot who doesn't know when to stop fooling around and start studying.
I want to study but theres soooo much, and at the end of the day I'll just be "meh" and then I'll put it off.
Again.





I'm in a very weird mood right now.
Hormonal imbalance.




This post has been littered with random pictures because I'm bored.
And I don't want to study today.
Or do PBL.
Or do anything else that might seem remotely productive.

As I said, I'm an idiot.
Sue me.



~vid~

Something to brighten up your day.

In a GCSE examination in Swindon, Wiltshire ( U.K. )
These are genuine answers (from 16 year old boys)

Q. Name the four seasons.
A. Salt, pepper, mustard and vinegar.

Q. Explain one of the processes by which water can be made safe to drink.
A. Flirtation makes water safe to drink because it removes largepollutants like grit, sand, dead sheep and canoeists.

Q. How is dew formed?
A. The sun shines down on the leaves and makes them perspire.

Q. What causes the tides in the oceans?
A. The tides are a fight between the earth and the moon. All watertends to flow towards the moon, because there is no water on the moon, andnature abhors a vacuum. I forget where the sun joins the fight.

Q. What happens to your body as you age?
A. When you get old, so do your bowels and you get intercontinental.

Q. What happens to a boy when he reaches puberty?
A. He says goodbye to his boyhood and looks forward to his adultery.

Q. Name a major disease associated with cigarettes.
A. Premature death.

Q. What is artificial insemination?
A. When the farmer does it to the bull instead of the cow.

Q. How can you delay milk turning sour?
A. Keep it in the cow.

Q. How are the main parts of the body categorised (eg the abdomen)?
A. The body is consisted into 3 parts - the brainium, the borax andthe abdominal cavity. The brainium contains the brain, the borax containsthe heart and lungs and the abdominal cavity contains the five bowels:A,E,I,O and U.

Q. What is the fibula?
A. A small lie.

Q. What does 'varicose' mean?
A. Nearby.

Q. What is the most common form of birth control?
A. Most people prevent contraception by wearing a condominium.

Q. Give the meaning of the term 'Caesarean section'.
A. The caesarean section is a district in Rome.

Q. What is a seizure?
A. A Roman Emperor. (Julius Seizure?)

Q. What is a terminal illness?
A. When you are sick at the airport.

Q. Give an example of a fungus. What is a characteristic feature?
A. Mushrooms. They always grow in damp places and they look like umbrellas.

Q. What does the word 'benign' mean?
A. Benign is what you will be after you be eight.

Q. What is a turbine?
A. Something an Arab or Shreik wears on his head.

And my all time favourite :
Q. In a democratic society, how important are elections?
A. Very important. Sex can only happen when a male gets an election.

--- JM ---

Shoot me

AHHHHHH I'm not studying.

Somebody shoot me pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. :(

~vid~

Helpless

I no longer have any control over anything happening around me.

And I have no expectations of people anymore.
They just break your heart.
They give you hope, teach you how to dream, promise to back you all the way...and right when you need them the most,
They snatch it all away.
And leave you lost. and helpless. and confused.
and broken.


And to have expectations of me, when you've never bothered to meet mine of you...that isn't unconditional love.
That's saying if you're not how I want you to be, I won't love you anymore.

And thats more cruel than anything, because I have no one else.



Guide me Lord. I need you now more than ever.


~vid~

This is NOT a post by Vidya.

Hi.
Right.
I haven't posted here for so long.
Not that anyone cares.
Except Vidya.
Who keeps bugging me to blog.
Because she thinks she's being ss by posting herself.
Little does she know that all of us visit this blog at least once a day to witness her ss-ness.
Because deep down in our hearts, it's one of the little things that keep us sane, and out of boredom's reach.
Okay, I just said that to make her happy.
Vidya, you can stop SS-ing now. :D

What to blog about?
Hmmm...I can't even remember the last post I wrote.
Sad.
It's been like, what? 5 months, give or take since I've entered UM.
I've learned so much and yet...
At times I just get so lonely I feel like curling up into a ball in my room and crying all night long,
Just for the sake of crying.
And yet it's not possible.
Because I share a room with others,
And I don't like anyone seeing me cry.

Being in uni,
is slowly taking it's toll on me.
I have to put up a brave front every single day.
Facing people I can't stand,
Taking in their harsh words,
and yet not fighting back.
To me,
you don't make friends in university.
You just make acquaintances for convenience's sake.

Don't get me wrong.
There are some good friends out there,
but if you think about it,
sometimes the feeling is not mutual.
Sometimes,
it's just a case of "I use you, you use me."
And yet we blindly ignore the signs,
telling ourselves,
"Hey, maybe I'm just being paranoid."
Well, you know what?
It's all just one big facade.
We entertain certain people we can't stand,
because if we don't,
then we might not have anyone to turn to.
Like I said, for convenience's sake.

And yet,
when my true friends are in trouble,
I can't do anything to help.
I try to make them happy,
I tell them jokes,
I make a fool of myself.
I try so hard to cheer them up,
with ways so fickle,
so stupid,
that I end up feeling so useless,
for not being able to help a friend.

Sometimes I wonder,
If I were to die,
Who would be at my funeral?
Who would shed tears for me?
How long will I be remembered?
A day?
A week?
A month?
Will people think of me every morning for a week after I die,
only to have the memory start slipping away after that?
Or will I be remembered once in a blue moon,
when you flip through your old school magazine?
Will I be "the girl who was in the same class as me"?
Or will I be "the girl who changed my life"?
Who knows?
But the thought of it can be depressing.

Damn.
I just wrote a whole essay.
I sound so suicidal.
That's just the way I am.
In this dog eat dog world,you have to do whatever you can to survive.

I think this just about makes up for my lack of posting for the past few months.
Vidya, I blogged.
That should get you off my back for about 6 months.
Hah.
End.

- J Me -

Burning Up

I'm confused.

It hurts to think when you have a fever.

I miss those days when I was carefree enough to walk into CSU having read up absolutely nothing.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

~vid~

Meeeeeeoooooooow.

Because I felt like meow-ing and I didn't know who to meow to. :(

~vid~