Superbear!

SUPERBEAR TO THE RESCUE!



Cos lets face it, we all need a superhero.

Bahahaha.
My brain is fried, can you tell? :D


~vid~

p.s. this picture was taken in 2008. On a night when we were oh-so-free. DAMMIT I MISS SEM1.

Random Rambling #8 (I think)

I have been whining alot lately.

I apologize.

One day, after EOS is over (which is like in one week's time @#*&^$#&$^*$^), I will sit down and tell you (via 3blindmice :DDDD) about every single unnecessary event that is happening in my life,
and explain why the hell I've been so confused and pseudo-emo lately.

It rained buffaloes and elephants today.
And I couldn't help thinking how awesome it would be to just walk out into that rain and spin round and round.
I think thats a sign I'm going back to normal :D



~vid~

#1111

This is post #1111.

Isnt that cool?

1 1 1 1

:D

Going to head to the library now. Meh. Hopefully I get 1/3rd of Endo finished today.
But then again, since I'm jinxing myself by announcing it on my blog,
I just might not get anything done.

Someone should lock my laptop away and leave me Internetless.
Then I would have to study to save myself from dying of boredom.

Rawr!


The whole point of this post is to let you people know that we've reached post #1111.
Cos thats just cool.
Epic, I say!
8D



~vid~

Random Rambling #192

http://3bananas4u.blogspot.com/2008/01/bastian-schweinsteiger.html

This brings back epic memories.
EPIC.
memories.


You know whats awesome?
The World Cup starts AFTER our exam is finished!
EPIC.
EPIC, you hear me, EPICCCC.

Dont quote me.
I just like saying the word epic. :D



Its been 4 years hasn't it?
Feels like The Conver, and all the staying up late to watch matches, and all the skipping school because we were so dead tired in the morning after late night matches...and all that, just happened yesterday.
Good times, yo.
I miss the conver.
I wish we hadn't lost ittttttttttttt dammit.
But I guess it was one of those crazy things you do and then you have to let go of.

I have fond memories of the World Cup period in '06...and then some.

Funny story : It was 'cos of the WC that I ever started blogging.
3 Blind Mice wasn't my first, but it was the only one that lasted. :D


Whee.
I should be studying.
Omfg Vidya what the hell is wrong with you? Tak mau pass exam ke??



~vid~

Friday, 28th May : Progress so far.

I am SO sleepy.

Which is kind of stupid.
Considering I came home (read : HOME home :D) last night and crashed around 10pm.
And then woke up today at 9.30.
11.5 hours yo! :D

And then, since I didn't come online yesterday,
(I swear half my life is spent on the Internet)
I spent the rest of the morning...well, online. Msn not included, since everyone else is studying and all. -__-
WHICH IS WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING.
But yeah.
After that, I went to eat lunch.
Then some people came over, so I hung around for that,
and then
I slept summore. :o
And then I woke up in time to shower, and uh. yeah.
7.30pm Friday, and this is what I have done with my day so far.

Now would be a really good time to go FFFFFFFUUUU....you know the drill.


I still haven't completed even one system yet.
And lets not get started on Sem3.
My Sem3 notes are packed away in a box and have not seen light of day since June 2009.

And you know, life wouldnt be sooooo bad if we just had the theory papers and OSPE,
but OSCE??
My OSCE is shit.
Its screwed up.
Im bloody incompetent at anything remotely clinical-skills-related.


FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCC....shouldnt I be studying instead of swearing on my blog?
yes I should.



BUH BYEE :DDDDDD



~vid~

Random post which I will probably delete in the near future. Notice how my post titles are getting longer?

I am NOT emo.
Don't message me on msn to ask me why I'm emo.
I'm NOT.
I'm sleep deprived.


I'm confused as hell, and I don't really know whats going in my life right now.
I can't sleep at nights cos there are just so many things running through my head.
It's been two days since I last slept.
I feel zombie-ish.
I think I'm going to have an asthma attack soon.



There's one person on this planet (that I know of) that, even if he probably doesnt understand what I'm going through, will still make the effort to make me feel better,
and help me get things sorted out.
He's not mine anymore.
I guess I was too much effort.


I AM NOT EMO.
I just have regrets.
We all have regrets.

And 3 weeks from now, I'm going to be browsing through my archives and I will kick myself for having written this post.


I need sleep.
I need to sleep.
Please God, let me sleep today.



~vid~

Eh. Another letter...-thing. :D

MEEEEEEEEEE . YAWWWWWWWWWW.

(Translation : meow, yelled version)


So when I started this blog 3 years ago, I never promised I would actually write anything substantial.

On another note.
HOLY EFFING CRAP HAS IT BEEN THREE YEARS ALREADY???


I was emo just now.
Now I'm not emo.

But I want to write this anyway, cos I might forget and all.
Seeing how my memory space is being cleaned out to store unnecessary facts about the human body that I wont need to know in 3 years time.

To Fatin :
(you know I planned this entire speech out in my head and now I can't remember a word wtf)
Hi.
2.5 years is an awfully long time to be roommates with a person. Especially someone who was a total stranger.
But hey look! We didn't kill each other :D
(although I'm pretty sure there were times we wanted to)
I will miss you. And our impulse movie outings. And our emo sessions.
And my brain is so very tired right now so I can no longer think of anything profound to say.
So yeah.
Oh oh... andddd...
MISS ME.
I DEMAND TO BE MISSED.
...Yeah. Thats about it. :D
bahaha.
AND REMEMBER PINKIE.

:D

Okeh.
My pathology of cervix awaits me.

GAH.


~vid~

Letter - Part IV

Dearest Future Husband of mine,

Now would be an excellent time to make an appearance.

I could really use a rock right now.

And anyway, would you really want your future wife to have struggled her way through medschool alone?

Yours faithfully,
Vidya

Revelation. #120983459

Somewhere, someplace, right now someone is hurting more than you.

So get over it, vid.
Don't spend your life moping around.
There's too much to live for.

Wake up and set your priorities in order.




Sometimes, believing in yourself far surpasses having other people believe in you.


Kenapalah aku emo ni?
Mehhh.

~vid~

Lapse

*panda-roll*
Meh.
Don't read this.
Tis not worth reading. I needed to write to ease my mind a bit.





Somewhere in the abundant free time that I had during the Summatives paper,
I suddenly remembered how in sec school we used to have to tie our answer sheets together with those pieces of string,
and how I used to finish early and be so bored and tie double knots and bows and whatnot.

And how they asked us that Datuk something something Mydin question during Moral in F5 and we were throwing paper at each other right under the teachers nose, trying to figure out who on earth the guy was,
and how everyone seemed to settle on him being the guy who started the Mydin chain stores.
I think someone said maybe he plays Negaraku and raises the Malaysian flag in the carpark every morning. LOL.
...It turned out that the Datuk Mydin our teachers had in mind, was the guy who swam the English Channel or something.


Anyway.


Back in school life was fun.
Life was easy.
I had my whole future planned out.

It was a given that I would be going to Taylors after I finished school.

And in Form 5 I had the world at my feet.
I was going to become this hotshot lawyer...or if not a lawyer, I was going to become a hotshot genetic engineer (basically a hotshot la okay).
And then I researched career options, postgrad options...I knew what I wanted to do with my life and how I was going to go about it.


And then the bombshell dropped.
I was doing medicine, and I would have no say in the matter (this is still a very sore subject for me so I'm skimming)
But like I said.
I had the world at my feet.
I mean, how hard could medicine be right? If other people could do it then duhhh...why couldn't I?
So then my plans changed.
Med school, work like a donkey for the first few years, get enough money and then put myself into lawschool.
It was perfect.
Everything was still planned out.


Today, I realise that there isn't much point in mapping out your future.
Things change.
People change.
People's priorities change.
My own priorities have changed so much in the past few years that I don't know how I used to have so much energy, so much competitive spirit to go out there and conquer the world.
I have lost that.
Medicine has not just humbled me, its has broken my spirit...over and over again.


Sometimes I take a look around and wonder "what the fuck am I still doing here?"
And sometimes I feel this is just where I was meant to be.
This is what I'm supposed to be doing with my life.

And sometimes I just feel like crawling into a hole and hiding away from the world for awhile.



I guess at sixteen years old, when I had my future all planned out,
I forgot to factor in a few things.


I never, not once, in my life thought that there would be something I had to struggle at in terms of studying.
Studying came easy to me.
Medicine does not.
The multitude of the things we need to know overwhelms me.

Meeting different people.
I grew up in Subang.
I went to Taylors, in Subang.
Right up til college, all the people I knew were the ones who had grown up with me.
We drama-ed together, learnt about life together, outgrew things together.

And then I come to IMU.
And I see people still behaving like high-school kids.
Relationship drama, backstabbing each other, being hypocrites...I outgrew all that by the time I was in college! ...and so did my friends.

So to come to university and be transported all the way baaaaack to square one. Thats just bloody depressing.
Whats even more depressing is that the whole lot of you (95% of you at least) are older than me!
Its a total WTF situation.
So yeah.
If I'm antisocial in IMU its because I simply can't be bothered to be a hypocrite and pretend to people I cannot stand.

And the scary thing is this is med school.
All these childish people here are going to be doctors approx 3 years.
Thats just scary.

I'm sorry. I know it sounds like I hate the whole of IMU.
...okay to be honest sometimes I do.
But I have my flaws as well.
I am an emotional wreck. And I am manic-depressive. Those are not easy qualities to live with...which would probably account for all my failed relationships, but thats beside the point.
I'm not asking you to be perfect.
All I'm asking for is a little more maturity than I see now.


And for those of you who claim to be oh-so mature and look down your noses at others...take a good look at yourselves in the mirror.
Tis you who is the least mature of the lot.


Maturity isn't about being hoity-toity and having a steady relationship and being above 21 years of age.
Its about recognising your flaws, being humble enough to acknowledge them, being able to compromise with people, shelving your arrogance and stepping out of that I-will-only-shop-in-Zara-and-only-eat-at-expensive-sushi-restaurants-comfort zone and seeing the world for what it really is.


I won't say I'm mature.
I'm incredibly childish.
I still sleep with my teddy bear, I still need to run home to my mother when I'm depressed, I still ask my dad/brother to top-up phone credit for me or buy me groceries, I still cannot keep a boyfriend longer than 7 months, and I am terrified of growing up.


I am one year away from being 21 and I am terrified of being an adult and accepting all the responsibilities that come with it.
I don't want to go to work and pay bills.
I don't want to get married and start a family.
I want to stay home, safe, cocooned within my family for the rest of my life.




..Look at where I started and look at where I ended up.
In case you haven't already realised, this wasn't a post of profound importance.
This was just me getting stuff out of my system. I needed to let off steam somewhere.

Life is difficult for me right now.
Its not just exams.
Its about new relationships being formed, old ties severed and thrown away, leaving...my entire world is in the process of being turned upside down right now.
And I'm scared.
And there's so much left to study and I have no time to stop and think about being scared.
I have no time to just step back and calm down and breathe.

I'm scared.
We're all scared.

These past two weeks have been hell.
The coming two weeks will be hell.
And when I finally get EOS out of the way, there will be bigger demons to face. My own fears.



This is where I leave it all up to God.

This is where I push everything out of my head and just study.
For the next two weeks.

I feel suffocated.




~vid~

Uhmm..

When you have been very much in love with someone, its really hard to be friends after it falls apart..

...because it hurts to see each other and recall that you did your best but it still didn't last.
(By NostalgicBliss. Taken from Tumblr)

Omg seriously vid, now, NOW you want to sit and emo?
No need to study isit?
Prepared for EOS ady isit?

...No.

*cries*

Right.
So.
I'm going to sleep now.
Headache. :D


~vid~

Post-Summ update

Hello (in spooky Rumplestilskin accent).

:DDDD


Been awhile since I last wrote anything of any importance (not that I usually do...but yeah :D)

WAIT.
IS IT SATURDAY ALREADY?!
*dies*


Heh.
Sorry.
Thought it was still Friday. :(



What to say, what to say...hmm.

Summatives?

How did it go?....to be perfectly honest I was falling asleep through the paper.
And I didnt go for the feedback.
So I have no idea how I did. :D
Ignorance is bliss my dearies. And bliss is hard to come by in this day and age. *nods wisely*




I finished OBA in like 10 minutes simply because I was picking and choosing answers at random.
...and cos I read fast?
:D
No, but really I swear when I was done with OBA, I looked up at the clock at it said 1.10.
I was ready to kill myself.

Spent another 10 minutes shading in the OBA answer sheet very meticulously.

Spent the remaining 40 mins pretending to check my answers and pondering where on earth the Punjabi-looking-I-think-I'm-all-that invigilator came from.
Dahlah walk like got slipped-disk.
Summore can *cough* act macho *cough*.

...I was too free la okay!
:p




ha.
Then EMQ.
Finished in 5 mins. That had to be the easiest part of the paper...duh.
Spent another 20 mins staring aimlessly at the clock and practising my telekinetic mind skills which were concentrated on moving the needle on the @#(*@(#* clock.




OSPE took longer.
Didn't study mah.
Had to sit and stare at the paper and twirl my pen and debate what on earth to write.
I think I made up my own disease for the first question :DDD

THEY SHOULD SO HAVE A DISEASE NAMED AFTER ME.
VIDS DISEASE.
HOW EASY IS THAT TO REMEMBER. RIGHT RIGHT?



MEQQQ.
Okay la.
Dunno why this Nilesh extending time. I finish writing long grandmother story oso still got time to stretch and stare at people before he announces that we need to switch papers.
-__-




So all in all the Summatives was...A WASTE OF TIME LA CAN.
AND WHAT was with the stupid OBAs??
Least likely. Most likely. Most probable.
Wan us to play eenie meenie my ni mo isit?




I want to watch a Malayalam movie.
WHY DOES NO ONE HAVE MY ROBIN HOOD CD.
Yes, Robin Hood is a malayalam movie.
Thou shalt not question my love for malayalam movies.
It runs parallel to my love for Prithviraj.
Inexplicable.
:DDDD



I have studied too much.
My brain is fried.
I make less sense that I ever did before.




I MISS MY BROTHER.
*cries*



Ok bye. :D



~vid~

Long Wordy Post

I'm tired.
Then again, aren't we all.

Haven't been sleeping properly.
My sleep is plagued with thoughts of bones,muscles,nerves,brain parts etc running through my head.
Its like a permanent checklist just playing on and on and when I wake up my head is just as saturated as when I went to sleep.
Been having weird dreams in the middle of it all too.

Had one day before yesterday, cant remember what it was,
but when my alarm rang I woke up in panic and flailed around wildly for abit before realising that I was in Shalini's room, there was no reason to panic, and even if there was I didnt have time to because I needed to get to studying.
Today's dream involved having a man climb onto our balcony from the next-door balcony in the pouring rain claiming to be hiding from the family because he was the maid's boyfriend.
...
I meant really weird.


I keep studying and studying and halfway through the day I feel like I know so much, and then I take a look at my lecture list and realise how much I still havent touched.

Long way to go.
Thankfully only one day left.
I dont care if I havent finished studying before the exam, I cannot study like a mad cow anymore.
I need a break.

Waiting for 4pm Thursday now.
Whatever my state of mind at that time may be.



So tired.


~vid~

#1100

This is post No. 1100.

Don't look at me like that. I needed a break.
Down to the 50s now.

~vid~

Whee

Wheeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm about to have a panic attack in like 5 seconds, so I'm attempting to stave it off by blogging.
:D
Does I not make a gazillion buckets of sense?

So.
Since I have nothing to blog about, but intend to waste the next 5 minutes aimlessly...
...
...
LOWL. (*cough*donthateme*cough*)


So yeah, anyway, over the course of the lastttt...(counts on fingers) 3-4 days,
I has decided I haz a type.
:D
Like for a guy. -_-
I haz found a sample specimen of zat type too (actually thats how I figured out I had a type in the first place)


Sooo.
Since I'm bored (I seem to need to convinve myself of this)...my type. General features only :


1. Bad boy wannabe.
Note the wannabe. This means that he dresses like the typical bad boy...jeans, black shirt, spiked hair, maybe a earring, and the dont-mess-with-me look/attitude,
BUT
hes actually a big softie at heart, and hes sweet and mischievous and it doesnt quite suit the look hes trying for but it somehow is endearing all the same.


2. Talks as much as me.
I need to be entertained.
And I refuse to do all the talking.


3. Excellent sense of humor.
Refer to the "I need to be entertained" :D
This does not mean I need the fella to start spewing out jokes every 5 seconds, but I would like him to be witty and to be able to make me laugh. Genuinely.
Doesnt take a clown suit and balloon animals to accomplish that, I assure you.


4. Honest.
Although the idea of someone very honestly telling you that they'd already eaten before a dinner with you because they were scared they'd get lost on the way and would turn up late and end up being ravenous by the time they turned up...is well, very foot-in-mouth material,
its entertaining.
And it makes me go O_O
I do not get bored with people like that. I like. :D


5. Playful-ish.
Playful. To be able to bear my nonsense. AND AND possibly indulge in it, with me. :DDD
The -ish implies he does know when to be serious, and is practical in issues pertaining to money, education and the like.


6. Sakai.
Self-explanatory. This personality trait is most necessary in order to keep up with my friends. :p


EDIT:
(I forgot the last one!)
7. Studying/working in a field involving maths/physics/something along those lines.
...cos lets face it, bad boy math geniuses are HOT. :D


Okay I lazy to think of anymore.
And yes, I did say that I has a specific person in mind,
BUT
tis a case of you want what you cannot have.
Although according to Suh Ming, there is no reason (in this case) that I should not be able to have what I want.
I'm inclined to agree, BUT it still feels odd.

We shall see?


I have a STRONG feeling that 2 years from now I'm going to look though my archives, come across this post and go like
OMFGWHATTHEHELLWASIEVENTHINKINGEWWWNONONO.
But that, we shall deal with 2 years from now.


I can somehow imagine Suh Ming laughing at this post.
Ah well.
I haz successfully wasted my time.
It is now required of me to shift my attention back to this stupid @#@@^#%@^#% third ventricle & limbic system.


I will not finish by Summatives omg.
And I will not have time for anything non-sem5 related AFTER Summatives.
And I am going to flunk my OSCE.

AND AHHHHHHH.
PANIC ATTACK.

...not.
I shall go study now.
Buh bye.
:D

:O I HAZ AN EMAIL FROM FACEBOOK!
I weel go study after zat. I promises. :D



Muah.
I love breaking English.
:D


~vid~

Quick random update

Rawr!

Gosh, when was it that I last posted? Wednesday?
:o
Life has been...confusing? stressful? MAD for me, since last Wednesday actually.
Roller coaster doesnt quite describe it.

Ive been scared, worried, confused, euphoric, sad, exhausted...everything. Every emotion in the spectrum of possible human emotions.
That...unfortunately doesnt not involve studying in any form. :(

So I'm left with uh..62?? lectures to cover before Thursday.
Sound familiar?
:D
Sucks that its mostly anat though.
If it was Patho still can somehow read last minute. Anat how to read?
Rawr.



My mind is still on hyperdrive.
Alot has happened. Alot.
Will blog more when things are settled.
Meh.



OH AND.
I HAVE SOMETHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT (as usual) :
When I leave my laptop on and walk around, that is NOT an invitation for any Tom, Dick and Harry to start using my laptop for facebook or email or whatnot.
What do you think I'm leaving my laptop on for?
Community service??
And already you tak malu enough to use ppls laptop without permission, at least have the courtesy to log out of ur accounts and close watever windows you have opened please.
Wtf.

RAWR.

Btw.
If I flame someone, its obviously going to be someone that reads this.
Why would I flame someone who will never read this and will never know I'm unhappy with them and will never change?



Rawr.
I am hungry.
I am going to eat.
Forgive me if I sound incoherent or mean. or horrible.
I am sorry.
I am not thinking straight atm.
Too many things.
RAWR.


~vid~

How to pronounce LOL

You know how some people pronounce LOL as lowl?
Like they very literally pronounce it exactly as it is spelt : like low with an l tacked on at the end.
Lowl.

That honestly has to be the most retarded pronunciation I've ever heard in my entire life.

Say it with me now.
LOL.
Ell Oh Ell.
How difficult is that to say?
Sure its two syllables longer than lowl, but at least it doesnt sound stupid.

And for all of you who do pronounce it as lowl and are sitting and sulking in front of your computers right now,
...come onnnn, you have to agree that I have a point.
I mean, if LOL is lowl,
then whats ROTFLMAO?
Rotuhfelmauuu?
Now that, I would like to hear pronounced.



~vid~

2am

I don't know what I'm doing.

Its been a grand total of 5 days since I last properly read through my notes.
*insert random swear word here*



I wanted to say something, but I can't phrase it properly.
Now would be a really good time to jump off a cliff.
Head, meet desk.

I thought I'd already let go. But yeah. No such luck. Let go let go let go let go.
RAWR.

~vid~

6 am

Oh hai.
:D

Couldnt sleep at aaaaaaaaaaall last night.
I think one of the most frustrating things in life (if not the most) is not being able to sleep.
Thats just cruelty.

I think my room is too bright.
No seriously, cos we have this window-like-thing in the room. Its not a window, its just like one part of the wall is glass and it faces the hall downstairs (we live in the penthouse, remember? :p)
So yeah.
The hall light is always left on for the nocturnal sector of our housemates who come back at insanely early hours in the morning. (I know ur reading this. hai. :D)
But yeah, so the light from the hall streaming in pretty much makes our room very bright. Even with all our room lights off.
Bright enough for me to see facial expressions of someone else in the room.

I'm the kind of person who needs pitch-black darkness to fall asleep.
Like I-cant-see-my-hand-two-inches-from-my-face kind of darkness. :(
Meh.

So last night was spent with my blanket over my head, or with my head buried into my bolster, or with my head buried into my pillow with teddy bears on either side to block out ALL light.

See.
The thing is, when you have chronic sinusitis, the laaaast position you want to sleep in is with things covering your face.
I.e. things that have potential to block your airway.

I had to keep waking up and gasping for air and then shifting position.
And I mean literally gasping for air because I was too lazy to shift positions until I really couldnt breathe, so yeah.
Heh.




Wah I writing long grandmother story.
Someone should start a count of how many so yeah/but yeah's I type in this one post alone.



Part of the reason I'm awake at this time is cos its Nilesh and Achike today.
Sky fall down oso must turn up for lecture.
So wake up early early and sit. 8D

The miracle would be IF I DONT fall asleep in the toilet.
And no, thats not disgusting.
My toilet is huge.
I can fit an entire dance troupe in there.
And its clean.
I just washed it.
Dont judge me.
:p



Note to self : Dont blog when sleepy. May result in long winded sentences.

But thats half the fun, no? :D



Excuse me while I go calm my nose down.
If you see my hands shaking in lecture later, its not because I have Parkinsons. -_-
Blame my Ventolin.
SALBUTAMOL!
I'm kidding.
I have no idea what the contents of a Ventolin inhaler are.

I dont know what kind of lousy doctor I'll be.
Ah well.
I dont kill people then can d la. 8DDD



Rawr!


~vid~

Sleepy

Okeh.

No more emo/angry-at-the-world posts.
I has said enough.
:D


Set alarm for 6.30 today to wake up in ample time for class.
Woke up.
My alarm rang twice summore.
Then offed the alarm, put my phone under the pillow and streeeeeetched...
...
...the next thing I know the morning sun shining through the curtains on my face woke me up again.
AT 8.30.
O_O
Then I forgot that class today was at 9...so I just ended up not turning up.

PBL starts in half n hour.
Laaaaaazy.
But I skipped last week...so yeah.
I need to go show my face today.

Meh.



For some reason my eyes are swollen.
Have been since yesterday.
Summore got dark circles.
Panda mata sepet. (slit eyed panda)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.


I has morphed into ze red panda species.
Cute kan kan?
:D





~vid~

Angst-Ridden

Hello.


My internet was pms-ing today, so I was using the Maxis 3G on my phone...and I iz out of credit now.
:(
This is the second time this week.
Which means...I have officially used up more then RM 60 in one week alone.
:O
That is SO not me.
Should probably stop using the 3G thing.
*cries*
Probably wont reload credit anytime soon, now that IMS is over and done with, I shall go back to not messaging/calling anyone. :D
I like being antisocial.

I antisocial oso people will go around creating scandals about me.
Imagine if I was social.
*shudder*


No, but seriously.
I AM FED UP OF ALL THIS SCANDAL RUBBISH.
I cannot talk to any guy isit without people messaging my housemates and asking questions?
Since when did the whole lot of you become my keepers?
Stop interfering in my life please.


I'm slowly losing every bit of privacy I own man.
I mean, if you read for your own entertainment then fine la.
Or you disagree with something, or you're curious about something...come ask me. Its my blog right?
Why on earth would you read something that I probably wrote when I was emo-ing about someone that none of you would ever know
...and then interpret it as relating to someone in our batch
...AND THEN GO SPREAD STORIES?
YOU PEOPLE REALLY THAT FREE IS IT?
How do you think I feel when I come home and I'm faced with a barrage of questions because random people from our batch decided to question my housemates on my love life??



Fine.
Since you people so interested.
I am not dating anyone.
I am not interested in anyone from IMU.
I am planning to join a convent after I graduate and become a nun.

Happy?




Sigh.
Very angsty post.
I apologize to anyone not involved.



IMS was ..ehh..not too great.
If any of my SAM lecturers had seen me on Friday...they would have wept.
Buckets.
Definitely not my best presentation.
Nowhere close.
And for all of you who were surprised at how good I was ("wah I tak sangka she can present")...thanks for underestimating me.
All backhanded compliments very much appreciated.

But
To everyone who seriously meant it...thank you.
:)



I iz not a happy panda today.
But no, I dont hate everybody.
I'm just fed up with quite a few people. You know who you are.
Heck I probably dont know who you are, but if you terasa...then there you go.


I just really dont see how it is any of your business who I sit with/talk to/hang out with.
I end up marrying the fella oso still none of your business kthxbai.



~vid~

Sometimes

Because it touched a nerve.


~vid~

House for Viewing

Wah I damn annoyed now.

Come, lemme tell you the story of how I became a real estate agent for a whole hour.


This one Chinese family just came to the penthouse in vista claiming to be relatives of our house owner...
...and they wanted to see the house.
Wtf?
At 8 oclock on a Tuesday? Seriously??



Dahlah TODAY, of all days, I very hardworkingly piled all my MSK notes on the table next to me to start studying.
Then right.
Summore, of all things, I was reading through that stupid Haversian System thing...cos I can't remember shit from Sem1.
Eh. no. Make that I never bothered studying in Sem1.
Yes.
Well.
ANYWAY.
In that mess. With all my books and notes and teddy bears and empty coffee mugs and everything strewn across the table and with my housemates strewn at other random parts of the house...WE WERE EXPECTED TO SHOW THEM AROUND.
WTF.
YOU THINK I GOT TIME TO SHOW PEOPLE HOUSES IS IT.
THINK I STUDYING MBBS TO BECOME REAL ESTATE AGENT ISIT.



Then right.
They came into the house, and then the lady can ask me summore "Can I wear slippers inside the house?"
Me : No. (DUH)
Lady : (wears slippers inside anyway) But you're wearing them.
Me : These are my house slippers.
...
Lady : OH. ISIT. (then takes out slippers)

wtf?


Then the small kid with them didnt want to take out slippers at all.
I pretend never see la. Takkan wan go fight with small kid.


Then right.
They wanted to go upstairs.
The man was halfway up the stairs, baru turn and ask me "Can I go upstairs?"
Gee.
You think?

I was like "I have to go wake up my housemates first" and luckily I did, because the whole lot of them were sleeping.
Then the small kid started this big drama at the foot of the stairs la.
Can cry summore cos dowan to take out slippers.
-___-
Wah if my kid, I would have slapped her straight.
Go ppls house dunno how to behave isit.


Then after that, we let them come up la right.
THEN THE STUPID MAN. YOU KNOW RIGHT ITS A HOUSE FULL OF GIRLS.
VERY IMPORTANT ISIT MUST STICK UR HEAD INTO OUR TOILET?

THEN RIGHT.
MUST GO WALK ON THE BALCONY.
NEVER SEE BALCONY BEFORE ISIT. DAHLAH PEOPLE DRYING underclothes THERE CAN?

At least the lady walk there pun I dont mind so much.
THE MAN MUST GO SEE SEE EVERYWHERE FOR WHAT.
My father oso has never entired my Vista toilet okay. -_-


Then Sarwees's room door was locked, cos shes not around.
Then we explained to them roughly the size of the room la cos they wanted to know.
Then right.
The lady can ask us : "How many square feet ah?"
No, really.
Thats like the one thing in life that I would be so sure of knowing.

@#(*@)#(*@(#*@)#(*


Then ask about neighbours.
Mana la I know how my neighbours are.
Then theres this one African guy living next door to us. Then they wanted to know if he disturbs us.
No. (DUH...again)
You sure he never disturb?
-___-
I look like Miss Universe isit, random African guy wan come disturb me? You think he got nothing better to do isit?


Then I asked them straight la : "You all planning to buy this house isit?"
Then she said she thinking about it.
:O
THEN IN THE BEGINNING LIE TO ME FOR WHAT.
OWNER'S RELATIVES MY GRANDFATHERS BACKSIDE LA CAN.


Stupid people.
Stupid house owner. No sense of propriety isit?
You let people stay in your house then you tell other people to go look see look see as and how they want?
Wtf?



See.
No mood to study ady.
ROAR.



~vid~

Aimless Midnight Ramblings of an Exhausted Mind

Rawr!

I'm in need of retail therapy.
In case you didn't know, my idea of retail therapy is pouring out random grandmother stories until my brain is so tired it cannot function anymore, then I can go and sleep in peace.
Basically, end result = sleep.
:D



Finished second IMS presentation today - the overview thing.
(Ben is awesome-ish. Note the ish. :p)
I dont know why I just cannot keep my mouth shut sometimes.
Must go and tell people what to do, then will end up with all the work. AND THEN RIGHT, dahlah big mouth can go and talk so much in the beginning, when suddenly I get the workload right, I wont say anything you know.
Will keep quiet and nod like some China Doll : "Yes yes, can can, no problem"
Padan muka.
Serves me right.
I dowan do work means I must open my mouth and tell people right?
But nooooooo. Will accept only, then will come back home and scold myself.

I can be really quite stupid sometimes.

Side note : Hanging out with Sarah (housemate) has really rubbed off on me. I scold myself more often than not nowadays...IN MY HEAD.
Its understandable if you scold yourself out loud,
because half the time we do because we have an audience and then it becomes a habit,
but when you get your own voice scolding yourself in your head....thats like end stage d man.


p.s. the above DOES NOT qualify as bitching about my groupmates. I'm not. At all. I'm scolding myself. Don't batu api please. I know you people memang have nothing better to do, but go interfere with somebody elses life la k.




I think you can see how sleepy I am.
I'm just going round and round in circles to make a single point.

Rawr.

I should have been born a lion cub.
My wild-cat communication skills are excellent.
I can rawr in 12234232834 different intonations/inflections of voice now.



I'm exhausted.
My brain stopped functioning sometime around 4 this afternoon.

*cries*

I dont know why I'm *cries*ing.
I'm not crying.
Theres a difference.
*cries* implies I'm just being a drama queen.



See.
I'm fulfilling my promise of rambling aimlessly.
Oh.
Wait.
I didnt promise that in the beginning.
I was supposed to.
Ah well.
:D


Ok.
Thats it.
My brain is going all sleepy-bye on me.

Good night people.
I sayangs everybody.
No, not everybody.
...aiya, everybody la.
Later got people merajuk then go complain on their own blogs.



How many IMU people read this anyway?
You all very free right??
Got EOS 5 coming up soon. Go study please. Stop stalking me.
I'm a very boring person.
No boyfriend,
no scandal,
no 112094382034 camwhore pictures.
Stalk me for what?
Takde benefit pun.
My lifestory not going to come for EOS essay question all.


Perasan shit anot?
I know, right?
I like.
:D


K.
Good night :D
*does trademark panda roll*



~vid~

Maybe hiatus wasn't the right word.

*Deep sigh*

:D
I jz got reminded of Dr Suresh :D I miss that man.



DONEEEE with IMS.
Well, not really..but sort of.
Will probably spend the whole of today and tomorrow ironing out the err..dammitwhatsthatword..creases? kinks?..you get my point.

I'm a bit of a perfectionist.
Probably why it took me 3 hours and 11 slides and ALOT of toggling around with Powerpoint animation before I was happy.
And yes it is possible to cover 11 slides in 5 minutes.
Dont give me that look -_-

Definitely not my best presentation.
Probably not one of my better ones either..but taking into account timing and the truckload of studying I have yet to start on, I think I did pretty okay.




Hopefully my not-so-authentic Indian accent doesnt make a sudden appearance on Friday when I'm presenting.
Now that would be awkward.

:D



~vid~