3 Days Worth.

Tuesday 29th July
My Internet is super freaking slow and retarded, and nothing is opening, so I shall blog in Microsoft Word, and then copy paste into Blogger when it decides to allow me to.
Woot my sentence so long :p

I’m trying to check my Friendster horoscope…cos I is retarded but I dun care.
Call me superstitious, call me crazy…
I duno why I need to read my horoscope either, I’ve just gotten so used to doing it.
Habit.
Nyeh.

Today’s lecture omg can die so damn boring.
Argh.
I was trying my best not to sleep…it helped that the fella sitting behind kept kicking my chair and yelling out answers to Mala Maung’s questions.
Summore the fella’s voice damn loud.
Everytime I threaten to doze off he’ll shout out some virus’s name.
-___-
I think they memorized the book la omg.
Everything oso know the answer.
I’m like O_O.Baru second week la wei!! So kiasu already for what??

Me in lecture hall…
Sarwees : Vid, whats the difference btw pathogenicity and virulence?
Me : Duno.
*
Vid, what’s labile?
Duno.
*
Vid, why is there a question mark right in the middle of her slide?
Huh? Duno. By the way, which page are we on??
*
Vid, you’re classic.
I know. (:
*stare*
Oh right. Thank you. :p

I damn sleepy la ok at 2.30…not that I would know any of the answers had I been wide awake. :p
I damn proud of myself ok.
Nyehe.
The worst medical student in IMU (if not on the planet).

The horoscope thing still not yet open wei wtf.

I think its hard when you like a guy, and his sole purpose in life is to matchmake you with his friend.
-_____-
Complicated much?
Especially when you love-hate the guy and hate-hate his friend.
Damn hindi movie la omg.
I shall hereby not comment on hindi movies anymore.

I don’t like the ending to Sindarela.
Me like happy, romantic endings.
I’m a hopeless romantic. Sue me. :D
I don’t like all those stories that say “If you love someone, it doesn’t mean you have to be together”
If people love each other, they should end up together.
Its so sad ok if you love someone but you cant be with them. ><

Right. I go sleep now. Bye bye. ><

Wednesday 30th July
I is very the annoyed.
The only Internet Explorer pages I can open are
a) shahidonline.net
b) youtube

Facebook cannot.
Friendster cannot.
Blogs cannot.
Google cannot. Yahoo cannot.
Means cannot study, cannot socialize, but can keep myself entertained if Im really desperate.
Wtf.

I mau reformat my computer. Sigh.
Pray for me!! …that the fella who reformats it for me wont go rosakkan my font n all.
They did tat to the house comp.
After reformatting the screen damn blur edi wtf.
I hope tat doesn’t happen to my laptop *touchwood touchwood*

Bluek.
Thank God msn working.
If my msn oso cannot masuk I would have sat and cried. ><

Signing off…
(woot! Ive always wanted to do that. The signing off thing. :p)

O ya.
Remember I was complaining I could no longer fit into my clothes?
The Sunday before sem2 started, we went for Kismat Konnection rite? So I wanted to wear my black jeans…
Eh hold on, I rewind a bit…in Taylors last year, my black jeans was super loose, so I went n got it tightened…the waist part only la, cos otherwise it would keep dropping and threatening to completely fall down.
So yes, last last Sunday, I wanted to wear aforesaid black jeans. It was tight-ish. So I unpicked the tightening-stitch-thingy. As in I loosened it to its original loose-sity.
And then it was just nice…fitting.
(sorry, brain damn fuzzy today…cant think of the proper words)
Then this week, I very hardworkingly forgot to bring back any of my formal pants from home.
Which was how I ended up wearing my black jeans to lecture.
O_O
Damn loose wei!
I kept going “omgmyjeansisfalling” every 5 mins and irritating the hell out of my frenz ;)
But seriously.
Damn loose edi.
My mother will kill me if I go tell her I unpicked the stitching two weeks ago, and now I want it tightened again.
O_O

Ok, signing off. :p
(I damn jakun wtf)

Thursday 31st July
I cannot dwld msn messenger on my house comp.
Using meebo again.
F*CK!

~vid~

p.s. I went back to reading storybooks during lecture again. Microbiology is f*cking boring.

Hoping, Praying, and Keeping My Fingers Crossed.

I did something. ><

Well, actually, I applied for something.
And I'm really hoping I get it.

I cant tell you what it is right now though.
If I do get it, I shall announce it to the whole world.
If I don't get it, you'd probably still know what it was, because I'd be ranting about the injustice (of not getting it)
*touchwood*

But I cant tell anybody cos I dont want to jinx myself. :p

If you really love me, pray for me.
Please and thank you!
:)

*crosses fingers*

~vid~

Disoriented

I've been blog-hopping.
Ok, no, not exactly blog-hopping...I like stalking a couple of blogs belonging to IMU people. :p
Read updates on how they find life here at IMU...compare perspectives, so to speak.
Nyeh. :p


Anyway.
I read this one blog.
Where this girl got 11A1s for SPM (I think she sat for it in 2004, results came out in 2005). And she got called for a press conference at the Ed Ministry,
and she was on TV,
and splashed all over the newspapers.


Ahem.
I'm Indian too.
I got 11A1s too.
HOW COME NO ONE EVER WANTED TO INTERVIEW ME?!

Sniff Sniff.
XD

I has a headache.
And the current conditions here seem to hint that I should be starting to get emo.


I shall not.
At least I shall try to not be emo.
Wish me luck everybody. :)


~vid~



P.s. Why do people change?


P.s.2. Yet why do stupid people never change?


P.s.3. And why do I always fall for stupid people?


Gah!

Super Ducky!

Eh I super love that duck la.
(the one two posts below this one. :p)
Very the cute.
Ok I should stop spamming the blog.
Itchy hands.
Keke.

~vid~

Downside of Being A Small Kid.

(I KNEW I left something out.)

My CIMB Bank Account only lets me withdraw RM200 per day.
Because I'm under 18.
W.
T.
F.
My books tat day were RM423, and I didnt have enough money because I'm under 18.

What absolute rubbish.
-____-

So to whoever who says Im soooooooooo lucky to be in Uni at this age...you all try la living on ur own with a retard bank account that only allows you RM200.
Wtf.
My mother oso gives me more money than that. -___-
Thank God I have two bank accounts.
Now if only IMU would have a Maybank ATM so I wouldnt have to go to petrol stations and/or Carrefour to *ahem* "press money".
:p

~vid~

I IS BACK. :)

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO.
Missed me?
Awwww. I missed y'all too.
BIG GROUP HUG. :)

*wink*

Wow. I went five days without blogging.
It feels like I just wrote that Kismat Konnection post yesterday.
Jea Mie, I love you for not allowing the blog to die. :)

I have had a busy week. Not hectic, but definitely not relaxing.
First off, Monday, Dean's briefing was superboringomgcandie.
I changed my hairstyle on Monday.
Not a major change, but enough to make quite alot of people not recognise me.
-___-
Anywaysss. I changed it back.
Cos I was fed up of saying "HI! :D" and hearing "OMGVidyoulooksodifferent!!!" in reply.
You'd think I got a nose job and implants ok, honestlyyy.
Ishsifiedness.
And Boone says I've never changed my hairstyle for as long as hes known me which is a total lie.
Bluek Boone.
I think he saja cari excuse cos he didnt recognise me on Monday and so he didnt say hi and so I called him lansi.
:p

Erm, Tuesday was okayish.
OMG LA I TELL YOU THE LECTURERS ALL SOT EDI OK.
EVERY, and I mean EVERY lecturer who teaches us Microbiology calls bacteria beautiful.
Or fantastic.
Or amazing.
E.g. "You should go to the museum and look at pictures of these bee-yoo-ti-full bacteria that cause us disease"
Contradicting much?!
Bacteria are damn ew ok.
AND THEY ALL LOOK ALIKE.
And God, the names of the diseases they cause!!
Tsutsugamashi or tsutsugamushi or smthng like tat. Sounds like sushi. -__-

Oh wait, I was sposed to go in chronological order.
Sry sry. :p
Ok, Tuesday. O YA. PBL.
I super love my group ok. :)
Whee!
I didnt know anyone of them...but theyre all really friendly and I talk alot when I'm with them which is a MAJOR change from how I was with my previous group (no offence) and I get to be as hyper as I like. :)
And I super love my faci.
She's a BS lecturer, so technically its perfectly ok for her to not know what we're going on about, but the thing is she knows her stuff.
I think she researches on her own before coming for PBL.
BS lecturer ok, telling us about antibiotics and all that. Respect wei.
And she's nice. :)

Wednesday....o ya, didnt go for lectures cos had major stomach pain.
I shall not go into details unless you want a commentary of how I spent half my afternoon retching on the toilet floor.
No rite?
Tot so too. :p
Oh but, we went to Kamal after the rest got back from lectures.
While we were there, some person came and bought books, and left before us...and as she left, she turned and said "Thank you Shah Rukh Khan!!" to the fella at the cashier.
The fella at the cashier looked nothing like Shah Rukh Khan ok.
But I shall not be mean, I shall not comment.
Anyway, we had this box of books to carry. Three boxes actually, but the last box was the heaviest.
It had FOUR Papa Pathos inside. O_O
OK, for those of you not from IMU...Papa Patho is like ermmmm...erm.
Remember our SAM Maths Textbook??
Its twice as long, and twice as thick and hard cover. o_O
Imagine carrying four of that.
So when me n Sarwees picked up the box rite...Mr Shah Rukh Khan offered to help.
"Shall I carry those for you?"
Me : "Oh yes please, thank you" *insert grateful smile here*
SRK : "Well...but your car is kind of near rite?"
...
...
...
NICKNAME DAMN KENG, BUT THE FELLA DAMN USELESS WTF.
Nama je Shah Rukh Khan.
ISH.
Saja wan hear me say thank you. Stupid boy.

Thursday.
Hmm.
Nothing happened. Except that we ended up sitting next to a bunch of juvenile delinquents during lectures.
I shall not go into details.
If u kepo, ask me on msn. :p

Friday...
Nothing much.
Rushed through PBL research.
Hardly had time to read through everything properly, but somehow got through PBL without embarassing myself. :D
O ya.
I dwlded Kismat Konnection off youtube.
So I can watch it over and over again. YAY!! :p
Without subs.
But watched once redi wat. I know la what they talking about. Keke.
My mum buying me the ori DVD when it keluars.
Woot~!

OK super long edi this post.
But I couldnt resist.
Kesian you people man...Vidya-deprived for 5 days.
Nyeh. :p
I is perasan.
Sue me.
XD

~vid~

The Donkey

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL : Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less

--- JM ---

Everytime We Touch - Cascada

Nice song :D
Old but nice. ^_^
Everytime We Touch by Cascada

Normal Version


Slow Version


--- JM ---

Vidya Is Happy. :)

I WATCHED KISMAT KONNECTION TODAY!!
YAY YAY~!
*big big smile*

Omg the number of rintangans that I had to endure.
No joke ok.

Lemme tell you story. :p

First off, I've been dying to watch this movie since before Summatives.
I swear this was the only thing that got me through that awful Summatives week.
><
Seriously, I kept telling myself it was ok, all I had to do was survive til Summatives, then holiday, then Kismat Konnection!
Weird incentive, I know, but it worked for me, so... :p

And the thing is I was the one who really really wanted to watch it, and the rest of them said they'd follow me once Sem2 started, and we could all go together, and take the couple seats so I could berhyper in the theatre to my heart's content without irritating the other people there. :p

This is where my rintangan story starts.

Rintangan number 1 : None of Shahid's movies have played in Msia before, and I was sooooo worried that this one wouldn't either.
GODBLESSSUHMING.
I swear, when Suh Ming told me that she had seen a life size poster of Kismat Konnection in Pyramid I was so hyper I started jumping up and down in my cousin's house...they all thought I'd gone quite mad. :p
I was so damn happy ok.

Rintangan number 2 : Summatives results came out. Sarwees refused to go for the movie anymore.
I wasnt sure if Fatin would want to come either.
Problem : NO TEMAN.
I was seriously considering going alone, but for some reason, I just decided to message Jun Beng and ask if he wanted to come.
He said yes. O_O
Jun Beng following me for a hindi movie. Weird much?
But who cared rite!? I got teman to watch movie!! :p

Rintangan number 3 : I checked the newspapers on Saturday for the movie listings.
NOT PLAYING IN ANY GSC CINEMAS.
wtfwtf.
Means no Midvalley, no Bukit Bintang, no Berjaya Times Square.
It was ONLY playing in Pyramid.
Not even in 1U.
Means cannot take LRT.
MEANS NO TRANSPORT.
I wanted to die.
Then I was talking to Fatin today morning, and she said (yay yay!!) that she wanted to go, and that if it was only in Pyramid, then she'd drive on one of the days after class.
(She drive, I buy the tickets...fair la kan?)

Rintangan number 4 : So I went to check the showtimes. 2.30pm, 9.00pm, 11.00pm.
9.00pm and 11.00pm were definitely out, because it would be too late for anyone to drive back after the movie (three hour movie).
2.30pm fell smack in the middle of all our classes.
><
Fatin suggested going today instead...

Rintangan number 5 : My parents wanted to go out in the afternoon today.
Means I wouldnt be able to go out to watch movie in the afternoon. I decided to chance it anyway and ask my mum.
The Miracle : No what movie, where, who you going with...just "What time? 2? Ok"
O_O
Woot!

Rintangan number 6 : We reached Pyramid safely...NO PARKING.
We went round and round and round...
and then we ended up stalking this one family all the way from the lift to their car, to get their parking space.
We stalked them in Fatin's car. keke.

Rintangan number 7 : We went to the ticket counter.
Kismat Konnection, 2.30pm. FULL.
@#@^#%&$%#&^#&^!!
By that time I was so fed up that I was like "nvm. We're already in line. We get to the counter, then we decide what to do"
We reached the counter.
THERE WERE SO MANY SEATS AVAILABLE.
STUPID PPL PUT THERE FULL AND GIVE OTHER PPL HEART ATTACK FOR NO REASON.

I tell you, when the guy handed over the tickets, I didnt know whether to jump for joy, or cry, or scream, or shout, or...well, you get the picture.
Heh. :)
So damn happy omg.

Rintangan number 8 : 2.30 pm edi. They not opening the theatre.
I was calm this time though. I had the tickets already.
For once, this time, if anything went wrong, I would finally be able to sue somebody.
Thank God they opened it at 2.35...by the time they let us in the advertisements were already playing.
Lucky only the adverts...if the movie had started, I WOULD have sued somebody.
:p

THE MOVIE WAS NICE :)
It was damn funny!!
But the comedy is so natural. Its like they do crazy stuff that normal people would do...the kind of stuff I would do with my housemates when we're damn hyper. :p
It made a nice change to watch a hindi movie that was realistic to a certain level. :)
The guy who plays Shahid's friend is so damn cute!! His reactions are damn slow ok...he gets the joke like ten years later.
ANDVIDYABALANISSOPRETTYOMG.
I geram la look at her, shes so cute!
And Shahid is damn cute la, of cos, that wan no need to say. :p

Everything that could have gone wrong today, went wrong.
But in the end somehow it all worked out. :)
I think that might have had something to do with my outright refusal to be emo and pessismistic.
Smile, and all will be right with the world. :)

Vidya is a very happy child today. :)

~vid~

P.s. Problem number 9 : I typed out this entire post. It deleted itself while I went to the toilet. This is my second (and hopefully the last) time typing it.
There's just no connection for me and this movie.
Heh.
;)

I must not be pessimistic.

I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.
I must not be pessimistic.

Oh dear.

~vid~

Sniff.

Warning : Emo post.

I'm going to miss home.
I didn't even have to pack much today...most of my stuff was still in my bags, exactly where I left them a month ago (yes, I am that lazy lol)
But no la, actually, I was so relieved to be home (esp after that hellish Summatives) that I dropped everything and just sank into the sheer comfiness of being able to stay at home completely for a month.

I was supposed to download movies...
Scan photos...
Watch movies...
Download songs...
Reformat my laptop...
Wash my teddy bears...
Buy and read storybooks...
Go shopping...
Buy shoes and clothes...
I havent done a thing.
Not even ONE.
(I was also supposed to study...but ah well...what else is new? :p)
I've been turning down offers to go out and all, and I'm sorry, but it was just SO good to be at HOME, that I didn't want to go out, or go shopping or anything.
I just wanted to sit at home all day and do nothing.

Sigh.
I sound like I just came back after ten years from some far away unknown place, huh?
Who would believe I stay 15 minutes away and come home every weekend? -__-

But I'm going to miss all the little things, that I've been able to do again this month, that I wont be able to do for the next twelve weeks.
And each holiday that comes around just brings me closer to the day when I'll have to move out almost for good after graduation.
Have I mentioned I'm a family person?
I hate my family to hell and back. They drive me up the wall ALL the time.
And yet, I love them more than anything in the world, and there's nothing I wouldnt do for them.
No matter how annoyed I am with them, when they need me I'll be there. :)

I'm going to miss sitting on the kitchen cabinet and spewing out grandmother stories to my mother while shes cooking.
I'll miss pilfering stuff straight out of the pot and having her swat at me with her wooden spoon..."OI USE A SPOON LA!"
I'll miss "Ma I'm hungry...got wat to eat ah?", and having her list out every food item we have..."Nothing else ah? Nvm la I dowan anything"
(keke. I think you can see why my mother calls me a tropical nusiance)
I'll miss "Ma!" "What?" "Nothing...saja call you" :p
I'll miss sitting down on the carpet in front of the tv and aimlessley channel-surfing.
I'll miss watching hindi/malayalam movies with the whole family.
I'll miss running down to go bang on the piano for 5 minutes every time I get upset about something.
I'll miss my teddy bears being all over the house.
I'll miss having both my and my brother's room all to myself.
I'll miss having acres of space in which to dump my stuff.
I'll miss going and jumping on my mother's bed at night before she goes to sleep.
I'll miss going and jumping on her bed in the morning after she yells at me to get up...just to irritate her, cos she's already tidied the bed. :p
I'll miss having someone wake me up every morning.

Weekends are never enough.
Its like being in transit at the airport.
By the time you settle down, its time to leave.

Bluek.
Another twelve weeks...

~vid~

Taare Zameen Par

Yay~!
Time for me to comment on my super favourite movie of the moment. :)

Taare Zameen Par

The movie is about this 8-year old boy, Ishaan, who suffers from dyslexia. His parents and teachers dont realise he has a problem, and instead think he is just naughty and uninterested in studying. He is sent to a boarding school, where his father hopes he will learn some discipline.
Ishaan feels that he has been sent to the boarding school to be punished, and he becomes very quiet and depressed. Until the new art teacher, Ram, comes to the school. Ram also works in another school for special children, and when he sees Ishaan, he realises that Ishaan is dyslexic.
Basically after that he helps Ishaan realise his true potential. :)
(sorry la my synopsis a bit cacat, but I'm sleepy, and I'm not much of a synopsis writer anyway :p)

This is another version of the synopsis I stole from some person on youtube :
Ishaan Awasthi, an eight-year old dyslexic child has difficulties in reading, writing and understanding letters, words and sentences. His world is filled with wonders that no one else seems to appreciate; colours, fishes, dogs and kites are just not important in the world of adults, who are much more interested in things like homework, marks and neatness.
Sounds more poetic. :p

Its very different from the usual hindi movies...
ZERO glamour, and I didnt even have to fast forward the songs.
Its a bit slow moving, (might be the lack of glamour) but its a superb movie.
I super super super love it.
And I cried a bit at the end. Well, not exactly...towards the end I sniffled everytime the boy cried. ><

Since I'm embedding anyway...
That song that almost made me cry :

Since most of you wont understand it...
Lyrics :

i never say this
but i am frightened of the dark mom
i do not show it
but i care for you, mom
you know all this, don't you mom?
you know it all, my mom

do not leave me in the crowd that
i am unable to return home mom
don't send me so far away
that you don't think of me, mom
am i so bad, mom
am i that bad, my mom?

whenever dad
swings me high on the swing, mom
i look out for you
thinking you will support me mom
i don't tell him this
but i become cautious, mom
i don't let it show on my face
but i am afraid, mom
you know it all, don't you mom?
you know it all, my mom

i never say this
but i am frightened of the dark mom
i do not show it
but i care for you, mom
you know all this, don't you mom?
you know it all, my mom

It sounds nicer in hindi la obviously.
But its so emo. :)
Me like.
Eh but this movie is seriously super nice.
If you cannot find it anywhere else, I have the CD. ;)

~vid~

If I throw a tantrum, will anyone take notice?

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO UNIVERSITYYYYYY!!!

SNIFF.
I spent my entire time in JB wishing I could come home, and now that I'm home, I'm dreading going back to Uni.
Summore this sem my Fridays end at 5.30, which means I only get to come back on Friday nights.
Which will shorten my stay at home by approx half a day.
Sigh.
I suppose the good part is I will no longer have PBL research to do over the weekends.
Which also means that I cannot afford to procrastinate and save PBL research for Saturdays anymore.
Nothing ever comes with just a good side does it? Always has a bad side to accompany it.

But no, I shall look at the glass half full.

This semester looks pretty sucky.
But I need to be optimistic.
And ALOT less antisocial.
Sigh.
(Vidya Gopinadhan, stop sighing)

On a completely unrelated note,
KISMAT KONNECTION IS OUT TODAY!!

I refuse to be cheated out of going.
I've waited far too long for this to not be allowed to watch it.
:p

~vid~

Fluctuating

I think I need a break.
No actually, I think I need to go home.

I seem to be having mood swings alot lately.
I'd be super depressed, then suddenly all of a sudden I'd be damn hyper.
And then I'd plunge into the depths of despair again.

I'm very irritable lately.
Very.
If I'm in a hyper mood I'd start out being nice, but if you provoke me even slightly, I'd explode.
If you're a close friend of mine, I would make an effort to control my temper.
If you're not, sorry lah yeah. I sometimes need people to be bitchy to.

I want to go HOME.

~vid~

Tired and Fed Up. I want to go home.

I am annoyed.
They know I'm on a calorie-counting diet.
They know I'm trying to lose weight.
What annoys me to the maximum is that they know it. But still they make life difficult for me.

They're buying satay today.
For me.
I DONT WANT TO EAT SATAY.
But they're still buying it.
And if I don't eat, they'll say "We bought it for YOU, cos YOU like Satay".
I told you. I dont want it. Dont buy it for me.
-_____-
If I eat it, I will be set back again.
I've alredy been set back so much.

Its not easy to force myself to diet and exercise at the same time.
I am tired.
I miss chocolate and sweet stuff.
I miss ice-cream.
I am fed up of having to go jogging twice a day to burn off all that extra stuff they've been forcing me to eat.

I want a break.

I'm trying so hard.
Its not fair to mess up what I'm working on.
My parents can understand me. Why can't they?
Buying me satay is not going to make me happy.
You think I'm depriving myself?
You think you're helping me out by buying fattening food I like to eat?
Your're not.
You're just making everything harder.

Yes, I am deprived.
Which is making me cranky, and emo and depressed and very very irritable lately.
Setting me back on my goals isn't going to improve the situation at all.
You're just going to drive me mad.

I have become obsessed.
And obsessive people can be explosive.

~vid~

Turn Around

Vidya Gopinadhan Pillai, STOP feeling sorry for yourself.
Life isn't a vale of tears.
Grow up.
Get up and move on.

I shall not be depressed.
I shall not feel deprived.
I shall not sit around and cry for all the things that have gone wrong.

So my life is in a mess.
I am going to go fix it.
No more emo-ing.
Wish me luck, everybody. :)

Me like this picture.
Reminds me that there's still hope out there.
And it doesn't always shine from the heavens. Sometimes it comes sneaking around from places you least expect.


Cheh wah.
I sound so damn philosophical.

Ah wth.
I SHALL NOT BE DEPRESSED.

Vidya is a happy person.
Sue her. :p

~vid~

p.s. ok no, actually, at the current moment, Vidya is quite hyper. wth. :p

Anti-socialness.

Semester Two groupings are out.
I dont know anybody in my PBL/MMS/CSU/Lab groups.
I'm in this huge ass group for everything 'cept PBL, and I DONT KNOW ANYBODY.
Not even one single person.
Never heard of them.
Probably never seen them in my life.

I hate this.

Maybe I should just quit and go to Monash.
T.T

~vid~

I dont want this.

I dont want to do medicine.

I dont.

I dont.

I DONT.

Vidya wants a cave to run away and hide in for awhile.

~vid~

Add to the Depression

Excerpt from my very own COP Report :
"We got obtained two educational cartoon videos on hand-washing that we thought might interest the students..."
-_____-

We got obtained...
In my COP Report.

My English has officially gone down the drain.
-___-

~vid~

Too Short

I drove the Honda for the first time today.
Me like.
Woot.
But. I'm too short to see the front of the car from the driver's seat.
I foresee sitting on a cushion in the future.
Me no like.
:(

~vid~

Helpless

Vidya is hurt, lost and honestly quite fed up of everything.
Do not ask her what is wrong because she will not tell you.
Life sucks.
And then you die.

~vid~

Sleepified

Vidya is sleepy.
She will no longer laugh at habits of other people ever again.
Last week she called David Archuleta crazy because he goes running at 4.45 am everyday.
This week, if she wants to get any exercise at all when she is in JB, she has to follow her uncle walking at 5 am.
Karma.
What goes around comes around man.
Sigh.

By the way...
Remember how Vidya was saying she was really quite selfish?

The Bottom Line
Don't you deserve to be a bit selfish once in a while? Focus on yourself more.

In Detail
The problems of other people don't interest you too much, right now, and even juicy gossip won't thrill you the way it used to. Right now you're much more self-involved, which is quite a switch for you. You've been putting the needs and wishes of other people before your own for too long, and today your mind wants to find a balance. Don't you deserve to be a bit selfish once in a while? You don't have to ignore a friend's call, but you can feel free to let it go to voice mail.

Oh, and Vidya doesn't purposely ignore phone calls.
Her phone is permanently on silent mode, so most of the time she doesn't even realise its ringing.
Sorry. :p

Vidya has developed this third person perspective from her cousin, who insists on saying things like "Priya wants to go to the toilet brb" or "Priya says hi" or "Priya needs to go eat now" during msn conversations.
It has driven Vidya quite mad to the extent that she has started doing it too.
However, it is hardly as irritating to do it in a blog post as it is to do it during a conversation.
Hm.

Vidya is exploring options.

~vid~

p.s. I've been thinking about it...and hell yes, I would make a good doctor!! I'll just be different from the rest, and probably give my patients heart attacks with my incessant hyperness. But then, hyper doctors would make a nice change, no? :p

Sesat. Comparatively.

Its 2.45 on Friday, the 11th of July.
And I am bored.
I have yet to finish my COP report. My third week of holidays is ending (wtf I havent been doing anything, how can the holidays be over?!) and I havent finished my report.
Remember how some time last week I proudly proclaimed that I had only Intro and Reflections left to do?
Yeah well...status unchanged.

I have been blog-hopping.
Randomly reading blogs of my batchmates at IMU.
Some whom I know, some whom I dont.
For the record, I know less than 1/4 of my batch...been being very antisocial lately. Ah well, what else is new?
So anyway, one thing I've discovered about the aforesaid blogger-batchmates...
Their blogs all contain mostly their thoughts about life, or about certain issues, and they can go on and on about them.
Essays.
There are of course the occasional "I did this today" posts, but a majority of the posts are about what they feel about things that happen around them.

Somehow I see a stark contrast between my posts and theirs.
They're fun loving people and all that...but there's this serious streak that shows through so competely.
Maybe its the lack of colloqualisms (cheh wah bombastic word) -e.g, no lah, kan, eh, ah, bluek...you get the picture.
The almost non-existentness (ok the correct word is non-existence...sue me :p) of smileys.
Perfect, edited grammar.
Perfectly structured sentences.
Gilafied kiasuness about AIR Topics and MMS sessions and exams and booklists.
Discussing options on how doing badly in one area would affect how well they'd have to perform in another area to pull up the final grade.
O_O

The only times I've mentioned AIR, lectures, etc etc is to complain about how they're making my life difficult.
keke.
I seem so frivolous compared to these people.
So hyper.
Unserious.
Playful.
SOT. XD
But my point is, they're all doling out free advice.
I mean they write COMPLETE POSTS on how looks shouldn't matter, how people should stand up for what they believe in, how to choose between family and friends...
I am not joking.
The only advice I've given out is on how to lose weight, and even that was purely selfish considering I only went and researched it because I want to lose weight after my mum hardworkingly told me I looked pregnant (and no, I'm not joking, she really said that -.-")
...and I only put it up here because I was bored and I didnt know what else to blog about. :p

To be completely honest..
I dont care about other people.
You want to go for looks ke, you want to stand up for what you believe in ke, you think friends are more important than your family ke... I. DONT. CARE.
I am quite happy living my own life.
Dont see the point in sticking my nose into other people's business. Unless of course there's drama and gossip involved. *wink*
I mean, I'll be there to listen to your problems...
I'll be a friend whenever you need one...
You want a shoulder to lean on, someone who will just listen without judging, words of comfort...you can depend on me for that.
But the moment that particular conversation stops, I switch off.
Sorrylah sikit, but I'm not going to spend my time thinking over your problems.
I have plenty of my own to worry about.
I know I sound like a selfish brat (I cant call myself b*tch...its too mean, and I've already been called pregnant O_O) but this is who I am.

So yeah, like I said, I've been comparing myself to these other IMU people.
We're from different planets.
They look like typical chilled-out relaxed people, I look like a first-class nerd. (this is my fav phrase of the moment ;) )
BUT
They study their butts off throughout the semester, I sleep in the lecture hall with my MP3 on, OR I sit and read shopaholic.
They religiously go for every MMS session, and come back and discuss answers, I have been to ONE MMS session this entire semester.
Most of them hang out in the library, I have yet to figure out where the entrance of the library is...I'm quite lost after they started renovating.
They go into VK to check out books, the only reason I go to VK is cos he sells Snickers for cheaper compared to the clubhouse lady.

In IMU, there are all these future doctors, and then, there's me.
What do y'all think?
Am I not in the wrong field?

Bluek.

I refuse to sacrifice my frivolity.
I dont have to try and be different.
I already am.

~vid~

Si Panda Comel

This is supremely annoying.
I cannot sign into msn.
-.-"

Anyway, my results were unexpected.
But not in a bad way.
I do not deserve this.
I didnt deserve my SAM results, and I dont deserve this.
I guess studying til 2am and then getting up at 5am to study again like some mad cow must've given me some good karma points or something.
Because I was completely blank during the exam. And sleepy. And 5 minutes after walking out of the hall, the only thing I could remember about it was that I had forgotten the difference between hypotonic and hypertonic.
-__-
I need to start studying properly next sem.
Consistently.
I cant become a doctor who diagnoses patients through guesswork and then sits and prays that she got it correct.

I do not like having to use meebo.
-.-"
I cannot even check my mail.

And I hate McFlurrys.
Officially.
Now I have a mess to fix. Damn.

I hate not having privacy.
I hate having to use a problematic wireless connection.
I miss everybody. =[

~vid~

I am scaring myself

Okay.

I have decided.

I shall switch from coffee to tea.

Teh-O.

Because I can drink three cups of coffee a day and still fall asleep in the afternoon.
And I know for a fact that I am addicted to coffee.
I am only 18 years old and I have already been addicted to coffee for 3 years.
O_O
Not good.

So I am switching to tea because :
a) It also has caffeine, and therefore should keep me awake
b) The caffeine content is less, and hence I can drink it twice a day, and my caffeine intake would still be less than if I was drinking coffee.
c) I can drink teh-o. I CANNOT drink Kopi-O (bleargh).

So now coffee (which is the one reason I look forward to waking up every morning omg how am I possibly going to live without coffee!?! sniff sniff!!) has been added to my list of things I love but cannot eat/drink often.
Rest of list includes :
1. Chocolate (@*&#@^$&*#^&$#^$!!!)
2. Peanut butter
3. Biscuits/snacks/junk food/etc etc
4. Candy (super sniff omg)
5. Nestum

Okay.
*Slow steady deep breathe*
(no my grammar is not tat cacat. Got reason wan. :p)
I must not become a health freak.
I must not become a health freak.
I must not become a health freak.
I must not...I must lose weight.

ARFGH.

Ok nvm.

~vid~

Results

Summatives results will be out tmr apparently.
(Tmr is the 10th of July rite?)


I will not be having Internet access tmr.
Which means...I have the perfect excuse for conveniently forgetting to check my results.


Apparently also, the results will be out online tmr.
Nobody said anything about posting the results.
I swear to God, if they end up not posting the results to our parents, (which would mean that I told my mother about Summatives FOR NO REASON) I will kick somebody.

*#&$^#*$&^$@*#&!#@&^#
I KNOW I did badly.
But somehow something tells me that I will be checking the aforesaid results at the earliest possible opportunity.
WHY am I so damn kiasu!?
-__-

~vid~

Yay yay :)

NAPPING IN THE AFTERNOON DOES NOT MAKE YOU FAT.

WOOT!
But wait wait...
For the record,
NAPPING means 30 minutes. Not more. (Yer! Nvm better than nothing)
And not directly after eating. Maybe about 1-2 hours after lunch.

Benefits of Napping :
1. Lowers blood pressure.
2. Reduces risk of heart disease.
3. Boosts your energy level.
4. Increases alertness.

Yay yay.
Ok I is going to go nap. :)
Good night everybody.

~vid~

Dream. Because you can. :)

Everyone has a right to dream.

Everyone.

Because every once in a while, a dream comes true.

At least, the ones that really matter do.

*
*
*
~vid~

Yay. :)

I ate my cheese tart today.
AND
I sat on the swing in the padang today. And swang till my backside pain. (abt 5 mins la LOL)

I is a very happy child today :)

~vid~

Rawr!

I feel like doing that.
Takpe takpe wait for Thursday. I shall go victimise my cousin.
Muahaha.

Sorry, being random. :p

~vid~

Dilemma No More

Omega's reunion is this Friday evening.

G4's gathering is supposed to be this Friday evening.

.

I was wondering how to choose between the two,

but my mother *ahem* solved the problem for me.

.

We are going to JB on Thursday.

T.T

~vid is rather annoyed~

The Curtain Railing

The curtain railing in my brother's room fell.
Literally. Like "Crash!"
Thank goodness I was sitting under it, or it would've crashed ON my laptop.
And thank goodness it crashed in slow mo, so I had enough to time to look up and prevent it from falling on my head.
-_____-

And since it fell, naturally I had to fix it la rite?
I duno which IDIOT installed it in the first place, because he very hardworkingly didnt put in a wall plug.
NO WONDER LA.
Eesh.
Stupid.
Know how to drill hole for curtain railing duno how to put wall plug.
No basic common sense. -.-"

So at 10.30 this morning, I was standing on a ladder figuring out the intricacies of a curtain railing.
Yay me.
I damn salute the fella who installed our railing.
Dahlah no wallplug, another part of the railing was missing also.
Cos its a double railing, so theres this tiny metal piece thats supposed to be wedged in between both the railings to :
a) hold them in place
b) maintain the distance between both the railings.
I left my cam in Kedah, or I'd have taken a pic to illustrate what I'm talking about.

I had no idea what to use to substitute the missing metal piece, so I used a safety pin at first.
For real.
I think those who know me would know I'm pretty capable of doing such crazy things.
Thank God, my mom found a spare railing part in our storeroom and gave me the piece I needed.
LOL.
I have no idea why we have spare parts for curtain railings in our storeroom.
o_O
Oh well.
Damn, I hope it wasnt my Dad who installed the railing. Considering I very unceremoniously called whoever it was an idiot a few paragraphs back.
But nah.
Me thinks it was the painters.

Long thumb nails are terribly incondusive for DIY Fix-It work.
AND
I do not understand why EVERYone in my family lectures me on how I should be more ladylike,
and yet expects me to fix curtain railings, and put up picture frames, and fix IKEA cabinets, etc etc.
Talk about contradictory.
-_____-

I like fixing stuff.
But not when I have long nails.
ish.

~vid~